I walked around mindlessly, trying to find a quiet place, trying to be alone. I could feel a tear slip down my cheek, and more followed. I didn't wipe them away, i just focused on finding an empty room.
I found one at the end of the hall, and closed the door behind me. I twisted the lock, and heard it click. Once it had, i collapsed on the bed.
A sob escaped me, and i pressed my head harder into the pillow. It was dark, and a memory surfaced.
I was walking through school, when he came up to me. It was like every other day, but something had changed. I couldn't exactly tell what it was, but it was if he was completely different. When he grinned at me, like he always did in that innocent, boyish way, i practically melted.
"M, you ok?" he asked me.
"Yeah, i'm fine." he reached out his hand, and brushed a stray hair out of my face, and his hand lingered on my cheek. His touch was amazing. Once he realized what he had done, he pulled his hand away lightning fast, and almost ran away. My cheeks were still warm.
My mind skipped ahead a couple of days, and landed on a different memory.
I was in class, sitting behind him. We were in english Lit., and the teacher was droning on. I was reading my book, not listening, or caring what he was saying.
"... and our final pair of partners for this assignment, will be peter, and MJ." that made my head snap up. I was with him. I could feel myself blushing, and then he twisted around, and looked at me. His face was calm, and his eyes latched onto mine.
He turned back around, and my phone buzzed.
My place-7? I could almost feel him grinning at his phone.
Sure. i clicked my phone off, and turned back to my book.
Once again, my mind skipped ahead, to the walk home.
I was walking home when it happened. A man ran up from behind me, and grabbed my bag.
"Hey!" i called out in alarm. The man kept running, and i ran after him. I lost him after a couple blocks. I stopped, and tried to catch my breath.
"Need any help?" i let out a little scream, and looked around. I had paused in an alleyway, and the oh-so-famous Spiderman, was perched on a wall next to me.
"Um, well, a man took my bag, and ran off with it." i described the bag, and he nodded.
"I will find it, and find you later." he swung away, and i continued to walk home, two guys on my mind now.
I showed up to peter's apartment, and walked in.
"peter is coming home soon, you can go to his room." may called out from the kitchen. I smiled, and walked to his bedroom.
I set my stuff on his desk, and sat down. Then i noticed something hanging on his door knob. It was my bag!
When peter came into his room, and died a little. It looked as though he had just came back from working out. He had a sheen layer of sweat of his forehead, and was wearing a tight, white shirt.
"MJ, hey!"
"Hi peter. Ready to get to work?" he grinned at me, and sat down on the floor. I quickly moved next to him.
We worked for about two hours, until he lifted his head, and stood up. I looked up at him, and stayed on the floor.
"MJ," He sighed, and closed the gap. He kissed me, and i felt his hand snake around my waist. I pulled away, and my head hit the wall. "MJ?" i pushed him away, and headed for the door.
"I'll see you at school peter." i left him in his room, and past may in the hall. She didn't say anything, neither did i.
I walked away from his house, and a million thoughts flooded my mind.
'I had wanted this, hadn't i? I mean, i had been crushing on him forever, and now that something had finally happened, something just felt wrong. It wasn't like i was made at him, or like i felt dirty because of it, it was just not right.'
My mind jumped ahead, this time only by half an hour.
I missed the bus to my house, so my only option was to walk. About ten minutes in, the temperature dropped, and i pulled my jacket tighter around my body.
My backpack was heavy on my back, and i began to cry.
'I was an idiot. I wanted one thing in life, and i had just ruined it. God. how am i going to talk to him at school? Idiot!' i thought, and i began to cry harder.
"Hey, are you ok?" i screamed. The spiderman was right in front of me, holding something.
"Did you find my bag?" i said, gesturing to his hand.
"Oh yeah! I did." he presented it to me, and i grabbed it out of his hand.
"Are you sure you're ok? Because you're crying, and.." he trailed off, looking at the ground.
"I missed my bus, and have to walk another mile to get to my house." i said. He nodded, and stepped in front of me. "What-" i was cut off when his hand slipped around my waist, and we were lifted off the ground.
I let out a small shriek, and he pulled me closer to him. We landed on top of a building, and he released me.
I started to cry harder.
"Hey, what's wrong?" he lifted his hands to my cheeks, and started to wipe away the tears that were flowing.
Before i knew what i was doing, i said, "this guy that i have liked forever just kissed me, and i turned him away. I don't know what to do..." i dissolved into sobs, and he pulled me into his chest.
"You like me?" i pulled away from his chest, and backed away.
"What?" he slowly pulled off his mask, and i saw peter's face. "Peter..."
"MJ, i am so sorry." I felt his arms slip around my waist, and he dropped me off in front of my house.
"Bye, Peter." I muttered, and walked inside.
Skip ahead to the next the morning.
I woke up, and hopped into the shower. Usually, I just woke up, and left my hair as is, but this morning, I wanted to do something different. I blow dried it after I washed my hair, and gasped.
My hair, that was usually frizzy, had cascaded down my shoulders in soft ringlets.
"Bye!" I called, and hopped on the bus to school.
I didn't see Peter till lunch, so I slid into my seat across from bed, and waited. I saw him walk in, and gasp.
"Like it?" I said, and ran a hand through my hair. He gulped, and stared at me.
"MJ," He looked away. "You can't tell anyone." He didn't look at me again.
I felt crushed. "Yeah, I won't, loser. See you later." I walked away from them, my eyes beginning to water. He didn't even mention it.
"Hey, MJ, right?" I stopped, and looked at the voice that called out to me. Flashes eyes met mine.
"Yeah,"
"I was wondering if you wanted to go to this party with me tomorrow night?" I swallowed.
"Sure."
"Great, I'll see you there." And he walked away. My eyes were watering again. Anything to get my mind off of him, no them.
Which brings us to tonight. The reason I'm crying is, well, I'll show you.
I walked into the party, and scanned for flash. I was wearing a light blue dress, and my hair was in soft curls again.
Then I saw him. He was making out with some blonde, totally oblivious to the fact that I was there.
At that point I run to a room, lock the door, and we're here.
Tap. Tap. I sit up, someone was in the window. I walk over, and pull it up.
Spider-Man swings through, and I gape at him.
"Why the fuck are you here? And wearing that ?" I spew at him.
"MJ, I could sense you weren't ok. And I had to wear this if I wanted to get to you this way." He walked towards me. "Are you ok?"
I felt his hand rest on my cheek, and I pulled off his mask.
"Yesterday, flash asked me to this party, and when I show up, I find him totally hooking up with this girl." My eyes began to water. "And that hurt, you know? I mean you kissed me, told me who you were, and the next day, all you tell me is to not tell anyone." I heard him suck in a breath. "So when flash asked me, I said yes, because at that point, I just wanted you off my mind. So, no. I'm not really ok."
"MJ," Peter pulled me into his arms, and I cried on his shoulder. "I'm sorry." I heard him whisper.
I pulled myself off his shoulder, and stared him straight in the eye. I barely heard him whisper my name, before I kissed him.
He sat next to me, his back facing the door, and kissed me again.
It was nice for that couple of minutes, before someone opened the door.
"MJ knows Spider-Man!"
