Sometimes I like to fill of the bathtub and stick my head all the way under the water and hold my breath.For omce it feels like time stops, I can't hear anything and can't see.All the thoughts vanish like thinking about test,school,fights,and friends they all suddenly are gone.I hold my head under as long as I can thinking about how great the feeling Is and wishing that if I pick up head out of the water I would feel the same.It just makes me feel happy.Ik if I told this to anyone they would think I'm crazy.I dont consider this drowning myself ,when I pick my head up out of the water then im drowning.