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45 Minutes Before

45 MINUTES BEFORE

Fin's phone rings on his desk, I contemplated picking it up but thought better of it. He is currently in the interrogation room with Nick. Some stupid boy who decided that he would rape and beat the old woman who lived next door to him when she wouldn't buy cookies from his little sister. He did a real number on her, but it looks like she is going to be okay, and luckily the little girl didn't see anything.

Nick's phone starts buzzing on his desk. Is everyone loved except me. I get up and walk over towards it just incase it is Liv calling to check up on us. It stops ringing by the time i have reached his desk.
I missed call from Peyton and one new voice message.
Hmmmm, i wonder why she is ringing?
I move back over to Fin's desk at check his phone, noticing he also has a missed call and voice message from Peyton. I hope Liv is okay.

I pick up his phone as well and move towards the interrogation room, unsure how long to leave these messages sitting on their phones. I leave my phone sitting on my desk.

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I ring Amanda, as i sit on the chair in the middle of the living room. I am not crying, I am just tired and worn out. It is only 12:15pm but it already has been such a long day and i just can't wait to sleep. She doesn't answer her phone just like the other two before her. I am not too sure what i would say if they had answered anyways, this way is easier. I pour out my heart and soul for the 3rd time this afternoon. In addition to my letters they have a voicemail each, I am leaving Liv's till last because i need to leave one for Noah as well and I am not sure if i will be able to keep myself together.

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I pull my phone out of my pocket, Noah still in my arms, only to notice it has run out of battery and that i forgot to charge it. I visibly deflate. I was going to take a picture of Liv and Noah, but i guess i have plenty on my phone to get me through the next couple of months. I hand Noah back to Liv. He is holding so tightly around my neck i have to pry his little fingers apart in order to separate us.

"I'll be back Noah." I place a kiss on his little nose, his tears causing my own eyes to water.
"Soon." he whispers.
"Soon buddy."

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I am around 40 minutes away from getting home. This drive is just so long. I keep feeling myself drifting off into a day dream, only to be awoke by honking from one of the other cars on the road. Peyton fulling my thoughts and heart completely. I pat my pocket just to make sure it has fallen out during my dazy drive. The box a small comfort that makes me smile.
Only a few minutes left, then i can ask her to take me with her, to keep me in her plans always.