Just another manic episode of anxiety.

Its always the same:

It's always the same. My anxiety is always the same. It's here and then it leaves and then it comes back again. I feel like no one likes me yet alone loves me. I feel threatened and almost as if I'm choking on life. Those snickers I hear behind my back, I assume it's about me. Those text messages I don't receive back immediately, I assume it's because you don't care enough to respond. Those so called jokes sound a lot like insults to me. I have no real perception when my anxiety visits. Everyone and everything feels fake. That kiss and hug you give me, well it feels forced. Some days I feel so alone that I can physically feel the pain. I think my expectations of life are too high, I think that I live in a fantasy world. my anxiety knows this and attacks. I don't know what to do anymore to make it stop.