Trashmouth

Girl

⚠️ strong language, homophobia, bullying and neglect ahead if any of this triggers you PLEASE do not read!!⚠️

Maggie and Wentworth tozier haven't always been the best parents, actually very far from it. It all started in college for went and Maggie, fooling around until one day they got unlucky and were "blessed" as some people said, with a healthy baby. Before the baby was due to arrive the doctors offered to let them see the gender of the baby, but Maggie was so sure she knew it was gonna be a girl, she could feel it. And only a few months later on March 7th she realized she was wrong. They already painted the nursery pink and bought dresses and even went wanted a baby girl as well. They were gonna name her Rachel tozier, so set they even had her name spelled on her wall. Well now that wall was his now. After going through all the trouble to make the room perfect for a little girl went was to annoyed to take it down so they left it there. They changed the name to Richard tozier, not their favorite like Rachel but one they could agree on. For a few months Richie only wore dresses seeing as that was the only thing he really had when his one pair of shorts and t shirt were dirty until went got to annoyed at Richie looking like a 'fag'. Perfect timing too because it was just a week before Richie was starting preschool. When Maggie dropped Richie off at preschool he immediately went over to the dolls that he recognized because they were all over his room courtesy of his dad choosing drinking over buying his son a few new boy toys. A random boy shoved Richie, having him fall over partly from shock that someone touched him. "Those a girl toys idiot! Play with action figures like the rest of us girly boy!" The boy shouted, Richie hates shouting, his dad yells a lot at home when he eats more than his 'portion' no bigger than less than half a plate. Tears started streaming down richies face "oh my god are you really crying? You're such a girl!!"
Richie tried to stop the tears and go over to the other boys to seem more normal but none of them let him, they just mumbled 'girl' under their breath and push him away. Not even the girls wanted to let him in because they thought it was weird he went to the dolls fist even though it's the only thing he's ever known, since when did toys have genders?! So yeah Richies first day of preschool didn't go well at all.
At home it wasn't fun either. His dad heard he cried at school and yelled at him for being 'a worthless pussy' that just made Richie cry harder but not in front of his dad, never in front of his dad. His parents never really talk much to him but whenever they do their usually yelling, he didn't want to give them another reason to yell at him.
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It continued on until 3rd grade when Richie started getting bullied the worst. Richies never really been popular, but he was never really badly bullied. Everything they said he could take so they decided to amp it up on him, a couple shoves turned into punches and kicks, the words were still there, but just a bit harsher. One day Richie came home after a particularly hard day from school "mom, what does faggot mean?" He asked innocently. Maggie's eyes widened "where did you learn that word?" She asked harshly glaring daggers at him "uh s-some kids at school threw this at me" Richie handed Maggie a crumpled up piece of notebook paper that read 'no one likes a ugly faggot' and at the bottom in small writing was 'gross gay boy' Maggie looked up at him "are you?" She asked quietly "am I what?" Richie asked "are you a fucking fag? HUH Richie?! You look other boys? You wanna go suck their dicks?!" 8yr old Richies eyes widened "NO! No ma! I-I just didn't know what it meant I swear!" Richie pleaded with his eyes that she wouldn't get dad, if dad thought he was a faggot he's surly be dead, thankfully his mom sat down only saying "good"
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2 years later Maggie tozier was pregnant again and this time she had a little girl. They named her Rachel. Richie was super excited to have a baby sister, he couldn't wait to play with her when she got older and ride bikes together like bill and Georgie! They both seemed so close he was so excited to have some to hangout with when mom and dad went out.
Rachel, Maggie, and Richie went to the grocery store to pick up some more baby food for Rachel. Richie walked away from his mom for a few minutes and she disappeared. He looked everywhere for her and ended up going to a nice looking worker and asked if she'd seen her they made an announcement to the store and when his mom finally came up to the front she did not look happy. Richie had tears on his face from the thought that she might've left him. Maggie didn't talk to Richie until they got into the car "why do you hate me richie?" Richie was taken aback, he loved his mom and she loved him to, right? " what?! Mom I don't hate you what are yo-" "Then why do you embarrass me?! Everyday since birth you've embarrassed me! And I walked away for 5 minutes and you run to the workers crying? You know how embarrassing it is to hear 'Maggie tozier if you are in the building you're sons looking for you'! All the other parents in that store probably thought I was the worst mother ever! GOD I wish I did leave the store so I wouldn't have to deal with you anymore!" Maggie exclaimed in a hushed tone because Rachel was trying to sleep. Richie was trying to process everything that just happened when Rachel started crying and screaming his mom sighed heavily, "oh baby don't worry mommy's right here" Maggie said watching Rachel and the road Richie was trying to hold back tears knowing his mom never talks to him like that and probably never has nor will.
Once they got home they saw Wentworth was also home, when they walked in Richie avoided all eye contact as much as possible, he knew his mom would tell his dad and he would get punished. As Richie was in his room he tried to stop crying, that's what his friend bev would do, and bev's brave. As they were slowing down his dad barged in "you really are a fag aren't you? Crying all the damn time." Richie was to scared to even blink the tears in his eyes away. "Go outside, I'll be there in 5 and you better be in position." Went left the room and Richie hurried downstairs, he knew what would happen if he wasn't there and he was NOT wanting to go through all that again. When Richie got outside he got into position of leading again their tree the his shirt off it was freezing cold outside too. Richie started tearing up again but he willed the tears away as he heard the door slam shut. "Good for nothing, stupid ass faggot" went mumbled under his breath just loud enough for Richie to hear. Richie trembled as he got closer "I'm doing this to help you, Richie" as soon as those words left Wents mouth a loud 'SLASH' was heard followed by a painful cry. Went continued to whip Richie until he deemed necessary. By the time they were done it was raining and Richie was slumped against the tree with his back bleeding and his sobs making his 10 yr old body tremble. He didn't understand why he even got in trouble! It wasn't making sense, the employees told him he was doing the right thing and was very brave so why didn't his parents tell him the same?!

The next day he was forced to go to school and was limping trying to keep pressure off his back by holding his backpack by the straps. As he entered he saw his small group of friends, there was Bill, the 'leader' as everyone called him who had a stutter which some bully him over, there was Ben who just moved to Derry to get away from bully's after his old school only to get bullied for his weight here too, but at least now he has friends, bev who moved here with her aunt not long ago and looks older than she is so she gets bullied for being a 'Hoe' whatever that means. Stan, who is obsessed with birds, like it might be a problem, Stan gets bullied for being to smart than there was Eddie. Eddie is Richies best friend who is deathly afraid of germs and gets bullied for it too. Finally there's Richie, he's the loudmouth or 'trashmouth' as the 8th graders call him. Richie gets bullied for acting feminine or 'gay' truth is, Richie doesn't even know himself! Anyway Richie walked up to his friend circle and immediately gets bombarded with questions about his limp. He just tells them he slipped on ice in the cold December air, they believe it.
Richie goes on being ignored and beaten for a few more months before he just can't take it. After a particularly brutal night with his dad taking out all the anger of work on him only to go read Rachel a bedtime story right after was getting to him so he went to the one person who he knew he could trust, Eddie fucking kasprack.
Riding in the cold air on his dads to big bike was hard enough as is but adding the fact he didn't grab his only jacket and every inch of him hurt was another level of pain. When he got to eddies he realized climbing up the new feet would be a much more difficult challenge than usual, nonetheless Richie tried his hardest to get to the window, his ribs ached and his lungs burned from the cold. After a few more minutes of struggling Richie heard a loud shout of eddies next door neighbor asking him what the hell he's doing. Startled Richie let go and fell on his back landing on the still healing scars and bumping his ribs he shouted in pain when he heard the door open to the kaspracks home, mrs k. Just who he wanted to see, the woman who already hates him more than anyone in their friend group. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY YARD?!" Mrs k screamed but before Richie could say anything he passed out from pain and exhaustion. When he came to he was in the kaspracks living room "r..." a blurry voice called "ri...chee" it was getting clearing until he heard a scream of "Richie!!" Eddie yelled trying to help him wake up "w-what happened?" Richie asked "I could ask you the same thing! You fell off our house only like 7 feet up from the ground, then you pass out and when we finally got you in I see all these bruises on you! What's going on Chee?" Richie smiled at the stupid nickname, he needed to be strong. "Oh, don't worry about it Ed's" Richie smiles "NO! No! Don't do that man! You do it all the time! Just open up you don't always need to be strong for others!" After Eddie said that Richie burts into tears-'you're pathetic' he thought. Eddie only rubbed his back and whispered sweet nothings into his ear. "It's okay rich, take your time"

Richie explained his entire life to Eddie, how his parents got their wish of having a girl and forgetting all about him. Everything. And even though they were just kids and couldn't do much about the shitty situation, Eddie being there and listening made it feel a little less shirty.

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Hey guys welcome to the new book! I just wanted to say thank you for all the love and support you've given me on my last work I'm so sorry I got to out of it. I love you guys!
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