~Life Updates~

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING⚠️

Hey, so I'm a minor and I'm part of the LGBTQ+ Community.

I am Transgender, female to male. Pansexual meaning I dont care about your gender, race, religion, or looks, only or personality. Polyamorous which means I'm in an open relationship, I'm dating multiple people at once, either they all only date me or sometimes they date each other as well. And Demi-sexual, meaning I need to have a strong connection with someone before I start feeling sexually attracted to them.

Not long ago I came out to my father about being Trans. May I say, his side of the family is homophobic and trans-phobic.  So I came out to him, he said he'd accept me and call me my perfferd name, yet after that he still purposely mis-gendered me and dead named me.

After that I have been full of depression and had more thoughts of hating who I am. It makes me emotionally and mentally hurt, I can barely feel physical pain, so that's half the reason why I tend to self harm. So I can start feeling something instead of bottling it all up causing more mental and emotional pain.

I'm still full of depression till this day, and I'm working on chapters for you guys but it's so hard to put things into words and focus... I'm trying so hard not to disappoint anyone else... Like the people who accept me, love me, care for me, all that...I don't wanna lose anyone else...

So if anyone reading this, cares about me...please let me know...it'll mean a lot to me... Thank you all so much...

I'm still trying after five years now...I'm still living and breathing... And I hope all of you do too...

I don't know how much longer I can go...

I don't know how much more I can handle...

I don't know how much longer I'm going to live for...