The Love Lost Within

Just "Fine"

Jacob POV

We have a great day planned for today, we are gonna spend the entire day with the children and have a family day, I can't be so distant from my children and my wife because then I would feel like a bad person. "Dada can I get dis" Gia said pointing to the bacon, man this baby loves to eat bacon "Yes you can, you want me to make it or mommy?" I asked being petty "You" she said "Wooooow" Faith said sitting on the couch by Hezekiah "It's okay mommy, can you make me pancakes and eggs?" He said smiling "At least someone loves me, Ky daddy is the chef for today so you can have him make yo-" Ky cut her off "But I wanna watch you so I can learn to make it for when daddy gone" he said. My heart melted, I haven't been home much and I can see that it's having a impact on my kids. "You know what Fay, we can switch for today, You come into the kitchen so I can spend time with my son and my baby girl" I said she looked at me and laughed "No thank you Mr.Chef, you got G-G in there with you and I got Ky" she said "As long as I'm with my family that's all that should matter" I said sternly "Well you with your family and your daughter wants your bacon and since her wish is your command then bippity boppity boom the bacon is made by you" she said. I sensed a little tension but I didn't want my children to see me and their mother arguing, so I just turned back around and kept cooking.

Faith POV

Jacob has been getting late night calls a lot lately and idk who they could be coming from, not to mention the fact that he comes in late all the time, I feel like I practically lost him at this point, I'm really a great wife. I cook, clean, do laundry, I gave this nigga children and he can never just come home anymore. I just hate feeling like I'm all alone, don't get me wrong he is a great provider and and great father but he's just slacking. Let me just wait til the children are sleep so me and him can talk. I thought to myself while sitting on the couch with Hezekiah, not realizing I was crying "Mommy, don't cry" Hezekiah said wiping my face. Luckily he didnt say it loud enough for Jacob to hear "Ky sit here, mommy's gonna go to the bathroom" I said to him, I don't want my babies to ever see my cry unless it's happy tears. I ran upstairss to the bathroom to avoid anybody see me crying like this.

Jacob POV

Faith went upstairs out of no where, maybe she was irritated and needed to cool down, I don't know what her deal is but she needs to relax. "Daddy, why mommy so sad if you here now?" Ky asked "I don't know lil man, I really don't know" I said "Well when you not here she always sad, but now you here and she crying" he said holding his toy train. I looked up and thought maybe that's why she went upstairs, maybe she's a little worked up because I'm not home that much, it's always work that gets me into trouble, I just really want to be a provider for my family, shiiiiiiit. I didn't stop to realize that my new secretary has been making late night calls eventho I told her that she can just leave notes at my desk, hopefully she won't do it as much after I go to talk to her tomorrow. I thought to myself "Here you go G-G your bacon is ready, Ky you want me to make your pancakes and eggs?" I asked "No, mommy gone teach me so I can do it when you not here" he said, he's always thinking about his mother "You sure little man, cuz mommy upst-" Faith cut me off "No I got it Jay" she said coming down the stairs smiling. "Well I'll tend to the children then" I said looming confused.

Faith POV

I was standing at the top of the stairs and I heard my baby boy practically telling his dad that he misses him being home and how he wants to learn how to cook so he can cook for me, I have such a sweet baby boy and he's akways thinking about me. While I was upstairs I thought that I could just surprise Jacob at work tomorrow, I gotta be grateful that I have a husband that provides, protects, and loves. I went back downstairs and taught my son how to make eggs and pancakes and had him help me too. "Baby can you make me a pla-" I cut Jacob off "We already ahead of you" I said smiling as I watched Ky take the plate to his father. The day ended soon and we had finally put the kids to sleep, I decided to not nag Jacob about anything. "Jay I'm sorry for earlier, maybe I'm just trippin because you aren't home" I said to him "Awww the baby feel bad" he said reaching out to me "All I'm saying is that you need to be home more often, your absence is having a impact on the children, and me" I said looking down "Baby please don't feel that way, trust me I'm just working" he said "Yeah but do you have to come home so late all the time?" I asked "Well sometimes I do have to stay a few hours behind, making sure everything is adding up and everything, don't worry so much everything is just fine Fay" he said "Okay Jay" I said slightly annoyed "Come here, come to daddy" he said getting up and bringing me to the bed "I just feel so alone and it's not the same with you being gone all the time" I said he lifted my face "Okay baby please don't feel bad, and you know you can pop up on me anytime" he said smiling at me "Okay Jay" I said. He didn't realize that he gave me the idea of popping up on him, so ima be bringing him some dinner while he at work tomorrow.

Jacob POV

I'm glad me and Faith talked tonight, I can't stand when she is mad at me because it throws a whole vibe away and it's not fun at all. I headed off to sleep because I knew tomorrow was gonna be a busy day and that I would have to stay late. I put my phone on silent so that the notifications wouldn't disturb my sleep and drifted off to sleep.

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Hope you guys enjoyed this, I don't know where It's headed (lol jk I do) but hang in there....until the next chapter.

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