hard.
i grew up in not-so-rich and not-so-poor environment.
my family,
were just little above average.
things happen.
i lost my dad.
mom remarry.
new dad is not so nice,
would look at other,
and never even bothered to cover it.
we grew up,
and poverty started tailing us.
life,
used to be nice.
as kids,
we used to laugh and stuff.
even though my childhood was a bit rough,
but other people had it harder,
right?
as in,
my life never even did,
matter.
as in,
i should just shut up.
but, i did.
i shut up.
things happened,
and i kept quiet.
and i realised along the way.
that, being quiet,
may be the key,
to live.
justice?
what is that?
hero?
is that a drug?
id like to try some next time.
as a kid,
i longed to be adult.
i regret that.
if i had a superpower,
i just wanna stay little.
i just want to run from responsibility.
"hey, you have enough money?
do you want me to bank in some?"
no.
i know how many you have in bank left.
and i dont even know how we could survive this month with that.
"hey guys, please pay the money for the books by this friday."
im sorry, but i think i may pay it a little bit late.
"guys, let's go out tomorrow!"
"let's watch a movie!"
i want to scream,
"i want"
but i know i cant.
i had to limit myself.
"at least you are not fighting to live,
like those at Somalia,
or like at Palestine—"
please,
just please,
shut up.
for once.
that kind of mentality,
kills me.
as in my life didnt matter.
maybe, by dying, ill find eternal peace.
money, kills us.
trust me.
if ill be the ruler of this world,
ill eradicate the existence of money.
but would life be better?
would it bring benefits for all parties?
would it be a good choice?
i wont know
maybe, by writing this, ill find some peace.
at least some relieve,
im hoping for a placebo.
please.
life sure is hard.
and living everyday is a battle.
battle between
myself
and other people.
life is hard, and it is once.
there's no walkthrough,
or any hack or cheats,
or even bug and glitches.
but maybe there'll be a happy ending,
may be.
but I'll live,
i think.
i will carry on,
with good memories as my
fighting spirit.
life is hard,
but yes,
ill try to live.
