Alexandra: No faking anymore. (2)

Part 14/Setting A Timer

Narrator POV...

This is edgy so don't be surprised.

Alexandra London this night wasn't feeling the greatest. She had nights where if she couldn't sleep she would go to Sam's room and just join him in his bed to sleep. Though this night she felt she couldn't bother Sam any more than she already had. She felt like a burden to the whole Winchester family.

She was in her hotel apartment sitting behind the counter with a donut and a cup of tea. Tears rolled down her face as she looked at her own reflection on the tea's liquid. A tear dropped into the cup. She had a Boston cream donut that she took a bite out of once, but she felt like it lost its flavor. 

She wiped her face with the sleeves of the hoodie Sam had given her years back. She didn't have her headphones on, which was rare. She usually had them on 24/7. Right now they were in her room. 

"I fucked everything up," she cried. 

She didn't know what to do anymore. She felt like she was a burden to everyone. 

She even thought about ending it.

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.

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That sounds like a great idea, she thought.

She knew she was needed at the moment. With Kathryn and Azeel. She had unfinished business with Ali. She wanted to kill her so bad. Though Sam would hate her if she did. 

Little did Alexandra know that wasn't the real reason why she didn't wanna kill Ali.

She went into her room, to where her phone was. She went on the "timer" app on her phone. 

She put on a timer. It would be set off at the end of the month. Part of her wanted to die sooner, but she knew she couldn't do that to Sam. This would be the first secret  Alex kept to herself. Not telling Sam Winchester.

When the alarm clock went off, her life would end. 

She was going to end it. 

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She looked at the "start button" with an emotionless expression. 

Then.

She hit start.

Alexandra's POV...

I'm such a burden, aren't I? I'm sorry Kamren, Sam, Loui, Charlie, and Chris and Kathy. 

But I just don't want to fuck anything else up or be the reason anyone else dies...

To Be Continued...