It's been exactly two weeks and three days since Lauren told me she was leaving, I'm still in denial about it even though she's going in just a few hours. She told me it's because her parents have received a job offer over in New York, the other girls believed her; I on the other hand had a gut feeling it wasn't entirely true.
Flashback
I was sat on the beach waiting patiently for Laurens arrival after she asked me to meet her here. It was a nice night so I wasn't fussed she wasn't on time. I was quite happy just sitting here under the stars on my own.
After another ten minutes Lauren decided to show up and apologized for the delay placing the blame on the traffic. Her face was make up free and her long hair was tied back in a loose pony tail. She was dressed in ripped jeans, a simple oversized navy jumper and combat boots. She looked so beautiful under the stars.
Lauren snapped me out of my gaze and began to speak.
"Camz there's something I have to tell you" She sounded seriousness and I new this wasn't going to be good, I shifted in my position signaling her to carry on.
"My dad just got a job offer"
"Thats good news right? it can pay for college?"
"Well yeah I guess..but the jobs will mean I have to move" Lauren said looking down at her hands nervously.
"That's fine I can still see you all the time..moving schools isn't such a big deal Lo" I said laughing at Lauren being dramatic.
"No camz..I mean move move" Lauren let out a long sigh and I could feel a lump forming in my throat.
"Where to Lauren" I was scared of the answer and I wasn't ready to here so in the 0.8 seconds I had I prepared Myself for what was going to completely change everything.
"New York"
End of flashback
I walked into the music room cautiously, making sure no one was present, as usual nobody was so I made my way in and sat down comfortably at the black marble piano. I started off by pressing a few chords then I began to sing.
Took my love and took it down,
I climbed a mountain and I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Till the landslide brought me down
I could feel her green emerald eyes piercing into the back of my head from the doorway, but I carried on playing acting oblivious.
Oh, mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I heard the door shut meaning the older one must have now totally entered the room and took a seat.
Well, I've been afraid of changing..
My voice got caught in my throat and I could feel tears threatening to fall.
'Cause I built my life around you..
I finished off quietly and lifted my slim fingers off the keys, I sat there quietly before I turned around to meet her soft gaze.
"you know camz, i think i'm going to miss your voice the most" Lauren said gently trying to descreetly wipe a tear but failing miserably as more began to fall.
"please don't leave me" I said so quietly it was almost a whisper. I new Lauren heard me though because she let a small sigh.
A small sob escaped my mouth and i tried to fight back the others that were trying to escape but I coudn't, I gave in and just cried.
"Lauren please..p-please don't leave me..I-I need you Lo"
So there I was sat on the piano stool in the music room in what seemed to be an extremely vulnerable state, preparing myself for the goodbye that was waiting to come between me and my best friend. I needed to change her mind, I couldn't let her go. There was only one thing I could think of that might change her mind and it was now or never.
"Camz..Camila, i have to go..I need to pack my final things"
"No" I said blankly, no emotion in my voice.
"please you know-" I cut Lauren off quickly before she gave me yet another agonizing speech o how it wouldnt be forever.
"No Lauren there's something I have to tell you first" I got up and went to take a seat next to her.
"Listen camz if you're going to tell me the truth about the prank you and Dinah pulled on me in 6th grade i know" Lauren replied lightly whilst laughing.
"No Lauren it's not that it's, wait you know? did Dinah tell you?"
"I'll explain later, carry on" Lauren said with a more serious tone now.
"okay so..erm I don't quite know how to put this..I've been meaning to tell you for a while..I just-I just couldnt risk loosing you..but I guess i'm about to know anyway.." my voice was shaking and it was taking every bone in my body to stop me from crying again.
"I know" Lauren butted in quickly.
"what?" I asked to check i heard correctly and was going completely crazy.
Lauren let out a long sigh running her hand through her dark brown locks whilst tapping her foot nervously.
"I know" the older latina repeated.
"You know?" I said a hint of anger in my voice.
"You know? you know how I feel?"
"yes because-"
"Save it Lauren, you know how I feel yet you kept quiet and let me suffer! God do you have any idea how hard it is to be around you everyday? wait let me guess you know that to but didn't take any of it into acount? I can't believe you Lauren"
Ally entered the room followed by Normani and Dinah but they all stopped in there tracks as they picked up the tension in the room.
"Sorry were we interrupting?" Ally asked before beginning to back out the room.
"Yes-" I cut Lauren off quickly again.
"No you weren't I was just leaving" I interupted harshly earning an ooo from Dinah.
I gave Lauren one long last stare, her eyes were red and puffy, They weren't filled with happiness and love anymore, they were full of sadness and regret. I wasn't going to pity her though, it was her turn to hurt now, and with that I shook my head and broke our gaze.
"Goodbye Lauren, have a good life in New York".
