Why ?

Chapter 1

Hi am Zoey Palmer, I live in St . Catherine J.A. to be very vague I live with my brothers and sisters one sister in specific that I would love to highlight Talecia Palmer and My parents Rose and Lee Palmer. And I am a stay at home daughter not that I love admitting it an want to be but because I can't have all my ways.

I aspire to work and be independent but my parents make it hard for me, once again to be vague I have four best friends to name two Reece and Asia the others I'll disclose at a later date and last but not least a number one world's best cousin chinney or chin for short and I love my girls.

Ever since I can remember as a child I was always verbally bulied by the people who were supposed to make you feel most comfortable...more confident about yourself the people who were supposed to love you the most. That person was my mother from rubing in all she has done when she was a young to calling me stupid and anything to diminish my intellect at any where and and everywhere for always bringing out and highlighting the worst part of my personality my downfalls my failures to absolutely anyone and for actual sounding proud.

I don't know maybe am clinical depressed. I laughed at everything i allow people to walk over me because  I give people chances and try to justify their actions. Someday when am far far far away from her I'll be happy I'll get myself checked out. My father has made it easier by siding with me but when he is not here it shows I have cried even prayed, written diary's, told friends all that help but deep down all I want is the love and affection of a mother.

Sometimes I don't want it as much because as I grow older the slightest touch of her skin against mine makes my skin crawl the small fake smiles she displays towards me at church anywhere it's deemed necessary cause me to grimace and shot a fake smile as well for the public I say for the family the fact that she doesn't approve of my awesome friends make me hate her more.

Why mother why mother why not love the child in which you have created I have learnt to live with it though daily struggles but one day I know my walls will come crumbling down I won't stick around to show her my weakness the effect she has on me I won't I promise. She once told me that ever since I was born my father changed his love sifted little by little from her to me....is that the reason for your venom?, I will never forget the things that you have said to me and I will always be my daddy's girl a daddy's girl.

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