taste my sad // ziall ✔️

09.

one year later

december 12, 2015

"zayn,

i'm so so sorry this had to end like this. i love you, you know? i love you so fücking much. i'm gone now and i apologize. i never intended to leave you this soon.

but my sadness had kicked in once again. about three months ago. i tried, so so hard to fight the demons in my head. i tried to stay alive just to be with you a lot longer. i didn't want to leave you zayn. but i couldn't stay in this horrible world anymore either. please tell me you understand?

you made me happy for so long babe.
and i appreciate you so much. tell my mum that i love her, and tell your sisters and mum that i love them as well.

i love you to the moon and back, zayn, always remember that okay?

sincerely yours

niall."

december 13, 2015

"niall,

i had a strong feeling this would happen sooner or later. i'm sorry i couldn't stop this. i'm sorry you were going through this. i'm sorry this had to happen to you.

i know you love me. i love you to. so so much. you meant the world to me. when i read the letter you wrote me, do you know how horrible i felt? i felt like my heart had shattered into millions of peices.

and when i had gotten the call that you killed yourself, i didn't know how to react. i froze in place and completely broke down on the spot. it was a horrible experience ni.

i still can't believe this is all happening.
but remember that one day when you asked me what would i do if you died that day? and i had responded saying i'd die the next day?

i'm keeping my promise baby. i can't live here without you. you were my happiness. you were my life niall. you were everything.

and i'm not mad at you baby. i'm a little disappointed. but it's okay, because i'll be seeing you soon.

i love you to the moon and back also niall. x

-zayn."

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it's over. :(

siiiiigggghhhhhhhhhhh.

ANYWAY.

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