Dear Charlie,
I would love to start off by saying I'm sorry. But I know I can never be forgiven. I miss you to death though I'm not sure its mutual. My actions hurt too many people. But I remember your smile. The crinkles around your eyes that made you look like an old man with a big heart. I remember the way you said hello, like you didn't give a care in the world. Like I was the only person you could see, but I can't stay. I couldn't stay. It was too hard, I was too unhappy. God, I'm trying not to cry right now, I haven't slept in days. I miss you too much. I broke my own heart. But I had to. I look at the autumn leaves falling off the trees, the boys and girls playing outside in the park and all I can think about are the memories we made together. My presence only brought you down. Deeper into a sad story . It was for your own sake. The life I had was overwhemingly tragic. I need you to know what was happening. Beneath the smiles, the happy memories. They were tears, they were dark circles hidden by the magic that is cosmetics. They were screams hidden by my undeniably terrible laughter. It was an unhappiness waiting to fixed. But I'm too broken. I'm too shattered. The glue couldn't hold my fragmented pieces. I tried, but I kept falling apart. I know you hate me right now, but you'll forget. You'll forget the times we had with the dogs. When we fell into the mud and we ended up laughing and rolling around in the dirt. You'll forget the time when we went to that concert and sang along with our souls. You'll be happy. In love . Sometimes a feeling of nostalgia will overtake you when you hear that song before you sleep. But you'll get over it. You'll be free from my chains.
It will just be a sweet tragedy in the back of your mind.
Forgive me
