Goodbye Agony

Faithless

[Warning: this chapter has scenes of self harm. This could become triggering so you have been warned]

Alex's POV

"Alex! Hurry up we are gonna be late!" Ben shouts at me from the hallway. I reach for my black hoodie and run down the stairs, stopping at the mirror to check how I look.

I have bright blue eyes and dark black hair spiked up with thick eyeliner on. I'm wearing a black veil brides top and black batman leggings with my dark blue converse. I have my arms covered in wristbands and 3 necklaces hugging my neck.

"Stop checking yourself out you look hot as satan... Now let's go!" Ben shouts in my ear which makes me laugh and grab the door handle before marching out.

We arrived at the venue quickly and flashed our tickets before walking into the hall and running to the front. That's right. We are seeing Black Veil Brides live!!!

"I'm so excited Alex!" Ben turns to me. Fan girl look all over his face.

"Same I hope they sing heart of fire." I reply. Let me explain I don't talk much because I hate my high girly voice. I am a girl I mean Alexandria is me but I'm not girly.

Suddenly the room went dark and you could hear the drums being played. I went ultra fan girl.

Andy walked out in his war paint looking amazing. I started to feel self conscious as his eyes met mine. Once he walked to the microphone, they band started the show off with fallen angels.

Ben was so drunk I had to drag him outside round the back to be sick. The band was taking a 5 minute break while I was outside with Ben puking his guts up.

"Andy pass me a fag" I heard a voice say behind me. I turned around to come face to face with black veil brides. Andy, CC, Jake, Ashley and Jinxx. My mouth dropped as Andy smiled before walking closer.

"What's your name?" I couldn't speak I just froze with my mouth open looking like a right idiot. Ashley and Jake started laughing and I felt my eyes swell up with tears. I ran away to a nearby ally hearing footsteps behind me.

I sat down on the bench and heard Ben sit behind me.

"They laughed at me. I shouldn't be crying but it hurts you know. I hate everyone. I hate being bullied. I hate being me. Why don't I just go die? Then maybe everyone will be happier!" I shouted with my back to Ben. I felt 2 strong arms surround me and I was pulled into a very strong, very skinny war painted covered chest. This wasn't Ben...

"Don't think like that, you have Ben and now you just got a hug from Andy himself" I heard which made me giggle quietly to myself.

I don't really know what happened next. I woke up on a bus in a bunk bed with Andy and CC's voices in the background. Suddenly a flood of emotions came over me and I remembered the bulling and my parents. I ran into the bathroom and locked the door behind me.

Searching the room I found a lighter and a razor. I melted the plastic and removed the razor blades before making several deep wounds in my wrists before sinking into darkness as I felt the door being barged open.