I feel exhausted both emotionally and physically I feel like I spent my entire life
like a puppet allowing myself to be influenced by everyone around me. As I sit here and think of what I did all these years ago I feel frustration and anger towards myself. I feel like if I fought against everyone and took control of my life I'd be much happier.
But I guess everyone has a weakness and my weakness lead me to be the person I am today. Sometimes I try........I try so hard to do something that makes me happy but there has to be someone who has to put there input in my decision which always leads to it being changed.
I'm tired now. Tired of trying to be the best for everyone. Tired of trying my best but still being told that so and so can do it much better than I can. I'm tired of always being told about my flaws 24/7. I'm tired of being told that I'm of no good because I'm not as clever or perfect.I want to do something for myself for
once I want to be happy...........but my weakness will never let that happen.
