mind of my own

she tried

Lucie a few years ago wrote a letter to me. it was darkening and haunting, sent shivers down my spine, she put me on the edge of my comfort zone. here's the letter...
dear Bex
I've been wanting to tell you that, I arrived in my new house today! it's a little spooky with all the furniture not in it, but my mum said it will arrive by Friday mid afternoon.
anyway, how is my little friend? she doing okay? I hope you are because I need a little happiness in my life...
life is dull. nothing to do. nothing to see. no one to be with. apart from the abandoned cat who was left here from the previous owners of this house.

I'm soooooo bored! it's like my mum never listens to me she's always like," do this Lucie" and "do that Lucie" and I'm quite frankly getting sick of this behaviour from my mum. she's now seeing a man (God help him) I call him the man, cause he's like 50 and she's only 41 it's creepy!!!!!

but I'm not well...mentally... I'm okay in Health wise I guess. loss of self control had put me down. there is no point In this nonsense of life... there is just not point!

I'm scared now, she didn't end it there.

see you soon ol' pal, that's if I am still around.
Lucie xoxoxo

why would anyone to know this. I'm worried that this would be our last letter to one and other.
I'm really scared to see her go.
but all I can really say is...
she tried.