My gay husband

Part 30: Problems

Cyan's pov

I woke up at around 4am, nananakit yung balakang ko, actually yung buong katawan ko. Dumiretso ako sa loob ng banyo at nag linis ng katawan.

Tinignan ko yung sarili ko, ang dami kong pasa. Nag bathrobe na ako at lumabas. I looked at him. Sobrang amo niyang natutulog. Ang sarap titigan. Mahal na mahal ko siya.

Di ko inakalang mababaliw ako ng ganito dahil sa pag ibig. Imagine? Me? Cyan? Falling for my gay husband. I love him so much, leaving all the pain behind.

*ting

I looked at my phone and the rang wasn't mine, it was pat's

Dahan dahan akong pumunta sa tapat niya at kinuha ang cellphone niya, tinignan ko kung sino to at halos gumuho yung mundo ko. Walang password ang phone niya so i can easily access his phone

I read their message. Sila ni nicole

Napatakip ako ng bibig sa sobrang sakit.

Nicole: until when ka sa japan?
Pat: a few days
Nicole: okay babe, i'll be waiting. I'm expecting na pag balik mo, single ka na, i love you!
Pat: yeah, we're on a dinner.
Nicole: okay, i sent the papers to your hotel, you can get it na sa lobby, ingat babe! I love you!

Kaya pala, kaya pala lumabas siya that night.

Nicole: okay, i'll be waiting.
Pat: okay, i'll let her sign tonight.

Shit. So that was it. Bat ba ang tanga ko? Bat ba ako nagpapakatanga? Ano pa ba ang silbe ko? Dahan dahan akong tumayo, halos matumba ako dahil nanghihina yung nga paa ko.

I'm better with nicole.

Pabalik balik sa isip ko. Halos wala na akong expression, yung luha ko kusang tumutulo, di ko alam kung ano ba dapat ang gagawin. Hindi ko na kaya. Sobrang sakit na.

I decided to pack my things. Siguro susundin ko nalang yung gusto niya. To get lost.

I looked for the annulment papers, im going to sign it.

Nang mahanap ko to, sinuri ko muna, nakatitig lang ako sa papel. Maybe this is it?

Wala pang sign niya. Baka di niya pa nabubuksan. I signed the paper and after, i wrote him a letter.

Iniwan ko yun sa side table niya. I looked at him again. I really love you pat. I hope you find and get what you wanted from the very start. I know marami akong kasalanan, i'm so sorry for everything. I'm sorry if i wasn't a good wife. I kissed his forehead at tumayo na. Lumabas na ako ng room, aalis na ako.

"At the airport please" i'm planning to stay at our house in europe. I called lolo na and kinwento ko na nag away kami and i wanted to unwind, kahit sandali. I told him also not to tell pat anything and we'll fix this with ourselves, pumayag naman si lolo.

I'm going to find myself again. I'm going to find peace.

Pat's pov

I woke up in the morning alone. I looked for her anywhere, and she's nowhere to be found.

Fuck, where the hell is cyan?!

Bumalik na ako sa hotel with a huge disappointment. Where the hell are you cyan?

Napansin ko yung sulat sa lamesa, it was her writing.

"I love you, you're free." Nagtatakang tinignan ko yung envelope.

I opened it and saw it. I saw her sign. I asked for this, why am I not happy?

*riiingg