As soon as his head fell back against the pavement Rey felt a far worse pain than death. Agony, loss, desperation. She could no longer sense his presence in the force like she had her entire life. Her dyad in the force was gone. Ben was dead.
Rey grabbed the back of his neck and screamed. It was the only reaction she could muster. The strain of battle was still coursing through her veins. The shock of her brief death still haunted her. The tingle of his lips on hers still lingered.
Rey saw the tears drip onto his black shirt, but she couldn't feel them rolling down her face. She couldn't feel anything, actually. No physical feelings at least. The wounds of battle didn't even phase her.
Rey couldn't even fathom that Ben could die. She had come this far with him. She had sacrificed everything for him. She wanted nothing more than him. This isn't how it's supposed to happen. She is not supposed to leave this planet without him, not after everything they've been through.She used her remaining physical strength to pull him back up. He was heavier than she imagined. She held his limp body up with one hand and placed the other hand on his face. Ben had transferred all of his remaining life force into her in order to bring her back, costing him his own life. Between the two of them they only had enough life for one whole person. The emperor has stolen too much for both of them to survive at their full capacity. But she didn't need her full capacity... not if it meant she couldn't have her dyad. If she could transfer half back to him, they would surely regain their full strength through time and mediation. She had to try at least. She couldn't just leave him without trying.
Rey pressed a shaky, exhausted kiss to his forehead before concentrating all of her being into him. She gripped his cheek and focused on the force surrounding them both. She imagined one whole being cut in half to make two. She concentrated everything into this one moment. She breathed life back into him. She cut part of her soul off and pushed it into him. She killed half herself so he could live.
Rey collapsed from exhaustion... but cold, strong hands were there to keep her from falling. She looked at him through blurry vision and tears. She felt her dyad coming back into existence.
"Ben?" She murmured, her voice hoarse from screaming.
"How did you do that? There wasn't enough..." Ben asked, confused and worried,
"I couldn't let you sacrifice everything. There's enough left for us to both live... barely live." Rey corrected herself, "But I'm sure with time... with time we'll be okay again. Just for now we have to be at half..."
Ben didn't let her finish. Overwhelmed with the opportunity to kiss her again, to hold her again, he couldn't resist. He pulled her face against his and felt her plush lips grace his own. He kissed her gently. So gently like he was afraid of breaking her. He didn't know he even had the capabilities for such softness.
Rey melted against him. Wrapping her arms around his torso and barely holding herself up while she kissed him. She found the act curious. She had never done it herself. It was both exactly what she imagined but still foreign. It was nice. Very nice. She was glad she got to do it more than once.After they broke apart they both let out sighs and chuckles of relief. The battles that they had been fighting around them and between them were finally over. Things finally started to become clear. Reys confusion and anger of who she was. Bens infatuation and frustration with Rey. The war... it was all ending.
They both stood with shaky legs and groans of pain, Rey was finally starting to feel the physical pain of battle. They held each other up with all the energy they could muster and limped out of the colosseum. They passed remains of the Nights of Ren along the way and Rey couldn't help but stare,
"Weren't these guys your friends?" She asked, amused at his ability to slay each of them,
"Friends? No." He looked down and her and smiled. "The First Order discouraged friendships. I hadn't even seen most of them without their masks." He paused, "Hell, I didn't even know most of their names."
Rey exhaled through her nose and smiled.
They finally reached Luke's X-Wing after several minutes of limping and grunting through the pain. Once they got closer Ben slowed."I don't... I don't know what to do." He murmured,
"What do you mean?" Rey asked,"I have no where to go. I don't know anyone or... have anything outside the First Order." He looked distantly at the sky where Last Order ships were still falling out of the sky.
"Well don't be silly." Rey laughed, "You're coming with me."
Ben looked at her with pain in his eyes, "I don't think it's that simple. The Resistance would hardly accept me with open arms. Besides... I don't want to be among them anyways."
"Ben... the war is over. The Resistance isn't 'resisting' anything anymore." Rey laughed at her own joke. "They will accept you." She said a bit more seriously, "You saved me. You defeated the Emperor."
"You defeated the Emperor, Rey." He said firmly, "I slaughtered resistance fighters for 5 years."
"Ben..." Rey wrapped her arm around his bicep, "No... no that's not you. Kylo Ren is time. He died. You don't have to live his life."
"It's not that easy!" Ben didn't mean to shout. Rey startled and let go of his arm. He looked at her and sighed, "I'm sorry. I'm lost."
Rey rested both hands on his shoulders. She forced him to look into her eyes and she smiled as widely as she could. Ben couldn't help with relax at the sight.
"I want to help you in whatever way I can. I want to help rebuild Ben Solo. This won't be easy, but I'll be by your side the entire time."Ben caught her face with his hands and kissed her again. He didn't know how to say what he was feeling.
"Come with me to Ajan Kloss. Let the see you as Ben Solo. Let me tell them everything. I'll stand by you every step." She said against his lips.
Ben nodded.
After a moment of fighting over who will pilot the X-Wing, Rey got into the cock pit and set them on course. Ben protested but to being a passenger but Rey convinced him otherwise.
Moments after being in the air, Rey connected into the communication link of the Resistance.
"That's the Red Five!" Finn exclaimed over the com, "Rey's alive! You made it!"
Rey smiled, "I'm coming home."
"I couldn't feel you... I thought we lost you." Finn murmured,
"Yeah..." Rey paused, "Yeah I thought I was gone too. But he brought me back."
"He?" Finn asked, "You mean... Ren?"
"That's a story for when we land at base." Rey responded,
"WE?" Finn and Poe said in sync over the com.
Rey clicked the com off and looked at her passenger, Ben. He resembled a very, very sad and confused child, Rey thought. This wasn't going to be easy. The hard part was yet to come, she thought.
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The Dyad: Star Wars Ep. IX Continuation
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