ALONE

The Moonlight Saved Me

"It's your words against theirs Kamryn." I knew she was right but I didn't wanna just stand around and let them just give up on us just because we aren't adults. "Mom. I am not giving up on him, just like his father. He was my best friend. I'm doing something about it or it wont get done." And with that I took my car keys and left. 

It's midnight already, dark and cold, feeling like it's below freezing. We don't get much snow here but it's so cold it should. I blasted my heater and started to my destination, to my best friend. I'm racing down the street when it get foggy. I slow down, it not really like normal fog though, it's more white. It's... Bright... Really bright. I pull over after it get thicker. I sit in my car with the heat hitting my body. I sit here for three minutes. Five minutes past, then the fog start to fade out, so I put my car in drive. But before driving off something in my told me to look around me. To my right, I see it. A path through the trees to the Lake. So I get out and start to walk.

It's not so cold out anymore. I'm wearing a thick gray sweatshirt; black timberlands. There is mud, I smell the trees, I hear the water. I stop walking; close my eyes and take a deep breathe in. Out. I begin to walk again. The wind makes it sound like the trees are talking to me. I walk deeper into the woods and I see it. The water. It's so calm. I sit down on a boulder by the water and look deep into the water. I feel my eyes fill with tears, yet nothing is coming out. I bat my eyes till they get clear.

"I'm so sorry Jay, I should've been there with you that night. I could have helped you. Why didn't you call me Jay! I could've HELPED YOU!" I scream into the night sky. I feel so guilty. He needed someone, he needed me... I need him. "I loved you Jay, I couldn't tell you. I've loved you since 8th grade." I start to cry, remembering everything we did together. We would go for long drives when we wanted to get out. I would go to the gay bar with him to make sure he would make it home safe even though he would get mad when I wouldn't drink with him. I remember that time I got beat up because someone tried taking advantage of him. I smiled at the good times. "I love you Jay".

I felt a warmth surround me and I knew things would be okay once I figured out what happened to him. Then all of a sudden something touched my shoulder and all I heard was "It's gonna be alright". I quickly stood up and looked around but no one was there. I turned to the water and saw him standing there. It was Jay.

"Oh my god." My knees got weak; my legs and hands began to shake. I sat back down as he started to walk to me. "Jay?"

"Long time no see Kam" He said with a chuckle. I closed my eyes out of fear that I was going crazy. I start to cry again.

"Wha-how?" I couldn't speak. I was lost. "How are you here?"

"Well one thing I know is I have loved you too. But I'm pretty sure you already knew that." I stared at him, stood up and gave him a hug. My arms went straight through him. I'm not sad though, I don't know what I am feeling. I'm happy?

"Jay, what happened to you?" He smiled at me, kissed my forehead and told me,

"I know you're the only person that can help me, so that's what I'm gonna ask. Help me Kam.." His voice started to fade with the rest of him, "help me please, I will always be here for you, just think of me when I'm needed. Don't worry, I'll know when that is." And with that he was gone. I smiled at the thought of him still being here. Then I thought to myself all the way back home, 'wait.. He loves me?'