drama life

【9】

↬ Janette P.O.V.

Apparently this "rumor" spread saying, "Jonathan likes Lexi" and my friend Lexi, like Jonathan. I would be happy if they dated. Like I said, "even if I'm hurt and I see my friends happy, I'm happy too." And another thing, that same day I was going to confess to Jonathan, they started dating. Larisa told me that he didn't like me and i wouldn't have a chance. I already knew all the crap I just wanted him to know, I knew if I told him we wouldn't talk anymore. My friend lexi and Jonathan are dating. I can't do anything anymore. I felt sad but when my and Lexi texted she seemed happy.
I tell my online friend, lejin, a nickname that was given to her, all of this. She made me laugh even if i was going through a bad time, even if I was crying at night. 
I just don't know what to do anymore..
My parents found out and they didn't help at all. I gotten back thoes thoughts like i did back in 6th grade.  I don't know what to do. I have a friend who wants to die, I have another friend who doesn't even know what to do because their crush is dating, and another that there are too shook that their crush is dating them. I just don't know what to do anymore. Lately I have been not been in the right mind set. But I started to notice things between Lexi's and Jonathans relationship. They were talk like normal couples would, Jonathan talked more to Larisa. I dunno why but I had a gut feeling that Jonathan was going to break up with Lexi and date Larisa again. Lately Larisa has been some what ignoring me. And i didn't know what i did wrong and it made me feel guilty. One day i brought some chips I was trying to see who would ask for chips if i didn't offer and what Larisa would do if I didn't offer her some. I had a lot more snacks at home so I could bring some. But i didn't expect her reaction to be bad...