Last young renegade (a fun ghoul x male reader story)

Ch 6

*explicit dream*
I was laying on a mattress someone with dark hair bobbing their head in between my legs. I let out a moan and ran my hands through their hair. Suddenly the person looked up and I see Ghoul with a smirk on his face. "Racer." I shuddered and then I heard my name louder. "Racer!"
*End explicit dream*

"Racer!" I jumped awake and shot up out of the booth breathing heavily my face covered in sweat. I look up to see Party looking at me with a raised eyebrow and blushed dark red. "What the hell were you dreaming about?" I got up and walked past him towards the shower mumbling. "You don't wanna know." I grabbed my clothes and just as I turned to go into the bathroom Ghoul came out not wearing a shirt. I stared at him for a minute before snapping out of it and blushed even more mumbling before storming into the bathroom. "Sorry." I quickly shut and locked the door then leaned against it letting out a long sigh running my hand through my hair. I can't believe I dreamt that about Ghoul and Party was the one to wake me up. Finally I turned on the water and took my clothes off then hopped into the shower letting the cool water hit my skin. I quickly washed my hair and body then turned the water off and got dressed. Looking at myself in the mirror I saw a young boy with dark brown hair and grey blue eyes staring back at me. I've never found myself to be that attractive and I've never felt the need to be with anyone since I became a killjoy. The last time I even had a partner was before the whole battery city thing. Sighing I turned and walked out of the bathroom going over to the booths and gave a weak smile when Ghoul hands me a can of power pup to eat. I silently thank him and sit in a booth by myself away from everyone not feeling like being sociable. I tried to ignore the worried and concerned look Ghoul was giving me and stormed out back when I was done with my food. I took out my ray gun and started shooting cans then groaned when I heard footsteps coming outside. I turned my head to see my sister and watched her stride up to me. "Your shutting everyone out because of your feelings for him you know." I scoffed and hit another can. "I don't know what your talking about." She rolled her eyes at me. "Your feelings for Ghoul stupid." I immediately changed the subject. "What about your feelings for Jet?" She gave me a look. "We're working on that. Now don't change the subject." I grumbled and hit yet another can. "I don't have feelings for Ghoul." She raised an eyebrow at me. "Fine pretend to ignore your feelings for him but you'll end up making yourself miserable by shutting everyone out." I shrugged and watched her storm off quietly. Sighing I look up at the sky then turn around and head for the front where Ghoul's starting to work on my bike. I stride up to his side and ask blankly. "Can I help?" He looks at me frowning. "Sure. But are you alright?" I shrugged him off. "I'm fine." I grab some tools and start helping Ghoul with the bike keeping my replies to him short and curt. I could tell he was confused by my distance but I wasn't about to give in and talk. Killjoys spend their lives in very dangerous situations. I knew if I let Ghoul in and either of us got ghosted then we'd be miserable and upset. I didn't wanna have that happen. It was just best for me to keep my distance away from him and just stay friends. After working all morning on the bike Ghoul and I headed back inside and each grabbed a can of power pup and started eating me sitting by myself again while Ghoul sat with Party, Kobra and Jet. Crystal sat with me and I talked quietly with her a little trying to ignore her knowing looks. I was determined to not let Ghoul in and I made a promise right then that I would not give into my feelings.