A Christmas Wish

Kara Danvers remembered the first time that she had celebrated Christmas with Lena Luthor. It was about one year after Lena had arrived in National City. One year after she had become friends with her. Although, it hadn't been easy at first, Lena wasn't the kind of person to let someone see through the walls that she had built around herself over the course of the years. And she had made it clear to Kara that she hadn't come in National City to make friends when she had tried to befriend her shortly after they met, something that had clenched her heart painfully for a while, until the brunette let her in, in fact.

One year later, they were best friend, and for the first time in her life, Kara had a female friend that wasn't her sister.

Kara was happier than she had ever been since she'd met Lena, it was as if their friendship had made everything in her life more intense, more worthwhile somehow.

Still, even though, Kara was happier than ever since she'd met Lena, the fact that she hadn't disclosed to her best friend that she was Supergirl started weighing her down. Although, the girl of steel could've carried the heaviest of load on her shoulders, the weight that was coming with keeping a such important part of herself shut off to one of the most important persons of her life was starting to be too heavy. And even with her super strength, Kara wasn't sure that she could've carried that weigh much longer. But she knew that she couldn't just blurt "I'm Supergirl" all of a sudden. That wouldn't be the right way to go. Besides, she was working for the DEO, which added some rules, among those, not disclosing her secret identity was part of the deal. She knew that it was a safety rule, that not only protected her, but also protected her loved ones. Something that Alex had reminded her a few days ago, when Kara brought up the fact that she hated lying to Lena, and wanted to tell her the truth, about who she really was, and what she could truly do. Alex had been understanding of course, she totally got why Kara struggled to lie to her best friend, but that didn't mean that she was okay with Kara putting herself in danger only to lighten her heart.

"How would being honest with my best friend put me in danger?" Kara scowled with a furrowed brow.

"You know what I mean, Kara." Alex sighed."The fewer people know the truth about you, the safer it is for everyone."

"Is this because she's a Luthor? Do you still think that she can't be trusted because of that?" Kara asked, her brow furrowing deeper, knowing that everyone in her life had somehow struggled to accept their friendship. Most people judged Lena Luthor harshly for something that was beyond her control. Lena was a good person, Kara had known that from the first second she had laid her eyes on her. She couldn't explain why, but she just knew it, she felt it, the same way that she had felt drawn to her from the first second. She had been wanting to become her friend from the first moment she had met her, and she had succeeded. After a year, she just felt that she owed Lena the truth about herself. She also wanted to open up to her best friend the same way the brunette had done countless times since they met.

"I know that Lena's nothing like her family." Alex replied. "But think about it, if your enemies learn that Lena knows Supergirl's identity, they could use it against her. They could come after her just to get to you. "

That argument had been the one that had convinced Kara to not tell Lena the truth. Not for now at least. She would keep lying to her until she found an efficient way of protecting her. She still loathed the fact that she had to lie to her best friend, even though she knew that it was for her protection. For Kara, protecting Lena at all coast was more important than relieving the weight that would probably make her crumble one of those days. The day Lena would find out the truth in one way or another, because Kara wasn't naive, she knew that she wouldn't be able to hide this part of herself forever. Lillian Luthor had said it, Lena would eventually find out on her own, and when she would, Kara knew that her best friend would probably hate her for keeping the truth away from her for so long. That was one of the reasons that had brought Kara to want to tell Lena first, because perhaps if she'd find out from her, her best friend wouldn't hate her, or at least not as much as she would hate her if she'd find out from someone else.