"Woah" I say laughing as I almost get tackled to the ground. "What?" He says laughing. "I dont wanna get my pants muddy" I say brushing the dirt off my pants. "Oh come on we do this all the time" he says laughing. By him I mean Colby. Hes my best friend. I have a slight crush on him though but we have always been just friends. I wish he knew how I felt about him though. He has dark brown hair that swoops across his forehead and bright blue eyes. His smile was one of my favorite things about him. "Yea but my parents would kill me if I went back like this" I say pushing his arm. "Oh stop" he says getting up. He holds his hand out for mine and pulls me up. "Guys everyone's looking for you" Sam runs into the barn. Sam is mine and Colbys other best friend. I just dont have feelings for him. "Ok tell them were coming" I say. I go to get down and my foot slips. "You ok?" Colby says laughing. I nod and stand up. "Here let me help" he jumps down and holds up his hand. I grab it and climb down. "Thank you" I say pulling my shirt down and walking away. I had to before I almost kissed the boy. I shake my head as I walk out of the barn. I walk back into the house and Colby follows behind me. "So where were you?" My mom says crossing her arms and smirking. "On a walk" I say giving her a look. She knows I like Colby and tries to embarrass me. I go and sit on the couch. "Hey my parents said were leaving" Colby comes up to me. "Oh ok well I'll see you at school" I say standing up. We do our handshake and he gives me a small hug. I breath in his cologne and sigh. "You good" he laughs a little. "Oh uh yea" I say punching his shoulder and awkwardly laughing. "Ok..... see ya" he drags out and chuckles. He waves as he leaves and I slump in the couch again. "So why havent you done anything about you two" my mom says picking up plates. "He doesnt like me like that and I dont wanna ruin our friendship" I say getting up. I walk to my room and flop on my bed.
It's been about 2 weeks since that night. Its friday and I walk into school and everyone's loud as usual. I cringe at the sound of people. I walk to my locker and open it to get my books. "Hey" I hear a voice next to my locker. "Sup dork" I say. I close my locker and lean against it. He leans on his left arm and looks at me. "Wanna go to a party tonight?" He asks. "No I'm not the party type" I say shaking me head. "Oh come on, itll be fun plus I'll make sure no one messes with you" he says. "Oh my hero" I mock him. He smiles at me. "Dont be lame it's our last day before graduation" he says nudging me. "Fine but if I'm not having fun I'm making you take me home" I say pointing at him. "Ok deal" he says and we shake hands.
Later that night I'm getting ready. I do my hair and makeup and try to look as cute as possible. I'm finishing up when I hear my door open. "Hey Shelly, is Y/n ready?" I hear Colby say. "Yea you can go up" my mom says. I then hear running up my stairs and my door open. He runs in and tackles me on my bed. "Get off" I say laughing. He gets up and helps me up. "Oh you look cute" he says casually and walks to look around my room. "Thanks....." I say and realize I'm blushing. "So are you ready?" He asks. "Yea lets go" I slip on my shoes and run downstairs. "Bye mom be home later" I yell and run to his car. I get in and see him telling my mom that I'm safe with him, the whole routine when I go anywhere with him. He gets in the car and we start driving to the party. As we get close I get nervous because I dont usually go to partys. "Hey it's ok you will have fun" he reassures me and pats my leg. We finally pull up to the party and its huge. Theres people everywhere and I get even more nervous. He parks and we get out. We walk inside the house and the music is so loud my ears ring. I plug them. "Hey Colby! Y/n? You dont like partys" Sam says. A girl walks up to us. "Hey everyone" she smirks and I notice shes checking Colby out. "Who's that?" I ask "Oh that's Shea, shes new" Colby says. "Oh cool" I say awkwardly. I have the feeling of wanting to crawl inside of myself and never come back out. There was something about her. "Um I'll be right back" I say walking to the bathroom. I go inside and sit for about 10 minutes trying to recollect myself. I peek out the door to make sure no one was waiting and I see Colby. He looked like he was having fun so I tried to stay. I look in the mirror and take a deep breath. "You can do this, do it for him" I whisper to myself. Just then I hear a knock on the door. I open it and walk out. "Sorry" I say and go to walk towards the others when I bump into someone. "Oh I'm sorry" I say to the guy. "Its ok, let me get you a drink" he says and looks at me for a long time. "Um I really should....." I start "come on" he cuts me off and practically drags me to the kitchen. I see him getting me a drink but I cant see what kind. I look around. "Here you go" he says and hands me the drink. He smiles and goes to take a drink of his. I take a drink of mine and it tasted wierd. I cough and spit some back out. "I gotta go" I say. I start to walk towards the living room when it felt like a bus hit me. My head got really foggy and I couldnt tell if I was drunk or what. I stumble and hit the wall. I go towards Colby and try to ask him to take me home. I stop when I see him kissing the new girl. It felt like someone punched me in my stomach when I see him. I feel tears form in my eyes. I go to turn when I feel someone grab my arm. I look back and see the guy that gave me the drink. "No....." I try to say when he starts to drag me towards the stairs. I try to pull away but whatever he gave me made me weak. We get about half way up the stairs when I got enough strength. "No!" I yell at try to pull my arm away. I see people turn and look at us and I hear running. "Get the fuck off of her" I hear someone yell. "And who are you?" The guy says. "I'm someone you dont wanna see again, now let go!" He grabs my arm away from him and punches the guy. He grabs me and carries me outside. He sits me on the sidewalk. I have tears going down my face as I look up at him. "Are you ok?" He asks and tries to wipe my hair out of my face. I see Colby and he had worry in his eyes but I couldnt get him and the other girl out of my head. "You said you would be there for me! Make sure no one even tried that! But you werent...... you were to busy ..... with your friends, well yea I'm ok Colby, dont talk to me for a while" I yell and get up to walk away. He grabs my arm. "Y/n dont." He says stern but sad. I pull my arm away from him. "Colby..... stop" I say as I start to cry. I dont look back as I start to walk home but I didnt hear him walk away. I get home and it's late but my moms always up waiting for me. "How was it?..... oh are you ok?" She asks when she notices I was crying. "I saw him kissing another girl" I say in between sniffles. She comes up and hugs me. "I'm sorry, but dont let him make you sad" she says and pushes my hair out of my face. We stand there for a while until I head up to my room. I go and lay on my bed and cry into my pillow. I hear my phone ding and go to check it.
Colby 💜
Y/N please..... I need to know if your ok, what did he do? I dont know why your so upset! I should've been there I'm so stupid I'm sorry read
I put my phone down and drift off to sleep.
It's the next Monday and its graduation day. I look in my mirror as I put on my cap and gown. I sigh and remember Colby and I had plans for graduation but we havent talked since the party. I miss him but I'm still not happy with him. I go downstairs and my family was waiting for me. "Look at our graduate!" My dad says and everyone coos in replies behind him. "Not yet, and if we dont leave now we will be late" I saw and we head out the door. We get to the school and I walk in. I go to sit in my seat and I see him laughing with Sam. He looks at me and smiles and I smile back. I still feel the same way about him but I couldnt tell him that. We go through the ceremony and I shout for him just as much as I would before. He does the same for me. After the ceremony ends I go find my family. I see Colby go up to his family and start talking to them. I start to walk over when I see Shea run up to him and hug him. I look at them and I can tell his parents think their together. I stop and see Colby look at me. I turn away and look down. "Can we go....." I ask my mom. She turns and looks at Colby and we walk out. I get home and go to my room. I sit on my bed and cry. I go and sit on my window seat and look out. I see a car pull up and Colby gets out and walks up to the door. I watch him knock and the door open. "Yes Colby?" My mom asks. "I was wondering if Y/N is here....." he asks. I look at him in wonder. "I dont think she wants to see anyone right now" my mom says sweetly. "I know I just thought I'd try, well can you tell her I miss her, and I love her for me please" he says. He has his hands in his pockets which means hes upset. I sigh and get up to go downstairs when I hear the car door shut. I run and look out the window and see the car pulling away. I grab my keys and run downstairs. "What did he say?" I ask my mom. "He misses you, where are you going?" she asks. "I gotta see him" I say and run out of the house. I start to drive to his house. "Please be home" I say urgently. I run up to the door and knock. I hear the door open "Y/N? What are you doing here?" His mom asks. "Is Colby home?" I ask slightly out of breath from being nervous. "No, he didnt tell you?" She says. "Tell me what?" I ask nervously. "He just left, hes moving to California with Sam, I thought he told you he said he was coming over to tell you before he left" she says. "Oh no......" I say in a breathless whisper. "I got go to" I say and start to walk away in what felt like a dazed trance. I go to my car and sit in it for a minute and process. I start to cry harder and harder. I didnt even give him a chance to explain. What's wrong with me? I ignored him and then he left. I frantically pull out my phone and go to call him.
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I throw my phone down and slam my hands on my steering wheel. After a while I recollect myself and I drive home and go inside. "What's wrong?" My mom comes running to me. "He left..... he moved away and he tried to tell me but I didnt let him and now he wont text me back or answer my calls and I'm freaking out because I lost my best friend and it's all my fault" I start crying even harder and she walks me up to my room. She sits on my bed with me. I slowly drift off to sleep.
