You Got Me Twisted

Chapter 2

Going back to my hometown for the Semsetral break made me a mess. I hang out a lot with my friends, went out to parties and you know, did all the “fun” stuffs that I don’t really consider to be that fun. I just needed the distraction.  I am growing sick of staying inside the house all the damned time to be honest.

Actually, the truth is, I just don’t want to be left alone. I needed to be in a place where there’s noise, where there’s a lot going on, where there’s distraction.

I looked at the mirror and took in myself one last time before I head for another party I was supposed to enjoy.

“This is so not me” I sighed.

I was wearing a black tank top, denim shorts and black heels. Trust me, I never wear shorts before. But now, I gave up on giving a damn. I reached for my sling bag and my car keys, and then headed out. You’re wondering where my parents are, aren’t you? Well, they’re out of town so I’m free as a bird.  When I arrived at the club, the party was already on its full blast. People were getting wild and scarier really.

“Sam! Over here” I saw Gayle waving her hand frantically that I was afraid she might break a bone. She was sitting in a chair behind the bar. Gayle is a very hyper person. I’ve known her since high school days. She was the most party girl among the rest of my friends.

“Youre heeeeeeeerre. I misssssed you”

“You’re drunk, Gayle” I said, disgusted.

“State the obvious” my other friend, Nikki said behind me. I was guessing she just arrived too.

“You know what, you guys should drink too. Here. Come on. Drink” Gayle was shoving me the shot glass in a very unstable manner, so the drink was spilling over the counter.

“Come on, Sam. Don’t be such a baby”

“You won’t let me do that if you’re sober”

“Who says I’m drunk?” Gayle laughed hysterically like a madman while I keep staring at the shot glass in front of me. Nikki patted my shoulder and sat next to Gayle. I watched her gulp down the beer that gayle offered me in a way you would think it was just water.

“How can you drink like that?” She was amused when I asked her but the amusement quickly turned to shock at something she saw behind me. I began to turn my head and find out just what she saw.

“Don’t!” Gayle tried to stop me but she was too late.

 I finally saw the thing I’m most afraid to see. There, right in front of me. I saw how they were dancing and how they were having such great time of their lives. I saw how they were about to kiss. To kiss! Goddamn. I closed my eyes and tried to control my emotions that were about to combust. I was feeling so nauseous, like I could faint right at this very second.

I quickly turned my head away from the dreadful sight and saw my two friends eyeing me with sadness. The beer suddenly looks so interesting.

“Don’t even think of it, Sam. He’s not worth it” Nikki warned me but right now, all I can hear was the loud thud in my chest.

At that moment, I felt so terribly sorry for myself. I could feel my self-esteem meter go down to negative. I looked at the girl and it pained me even more. She was stunning. So unlike me, dull and average me. I felt the blood drain out of my system, it's unbelievable. Seeing him dance with somebody else, seeing him about to kiss somebody else was extremely sickening down to the bones. Just seeing him smile, the exact smile I fell in love with, and knowing that I’m not the reason for it anymore was unbearable for lack of a better word. What the fuck did I do so wrong for this to happen to me?! I can’t do this any longer. I just can’t stay here.

“Girls, im.. I’m going home. I can’t do this”