JOCK CRUSHED ME BACK -(NERD X JOCK)- ✔

23. "I had a dream..."

Well sorry for the late update...  Enjoy

Day 5- sometime after dusk

Andy POV
   Our tents are set for tonight and me and Isen have our bags ready for departure tomorrow.

   "I can't wait for the night walk!" Isen shouted when he got inside the tent just after me.

   "Me too" I said. "It's gonna be hella fun"

   Isen had came towards me and sat just beside me. I hugged him closer to me. I gave him a quick peck on the lips. Thses are pretty spacious. But, not enough space for us to stand. Not like we'll be needing to. I mean I don't think we will.

    "Are you still gonna do the walk alone? " Isen asked me.
I know why he asked. That letter from Mero the other day. With what he just did I don't think I'll be doing the walk alone. I mean I think Mero already did what he wanted to.

    "I think I still will" I told him , unsure.
    "Why?!" Isen responded.
He got mad quick.

    "I mean what if there is more Mero wants to tell me. What if he wants to have a talk. A real talk 1-on-1."I told Isen.
I mean Mero was just my best friend of 6 years a couple days ago. I want to know if he's fine.

    "You do have a point." Isen said, calming down.
He looked a bit hurt. I grabbed him and snuggled him closer to my chest. I then gave him a peck on the lips.

    "Trust me I do want to but it's just I wanna be friends with him again. He was my best friend,  and I want him to still be my best friend." I told him.

   "I completely understand that" he responded.
Thank god he does. I thought he would've been mad.

   I mean we may not never get a chance to walk alone in the woods again. The dark and scary noises of the night sending chills up our spines. Isen clinging to my arm while we walk with caution through the woods.

   That would be a dream come true. One of my wildest dreams.

   It would be my favorite.

   We just finished dinner. Now we can start breaking off into pairs or so for the night walk.

   "See you Isen" I gave the love of my life one last hug before he walked off with his friends. Mostly his entire group was there. The only ones missing were Karin and his sister: Sera.

    "Be safe" Isen told me. I have a feeling I might need to.

   I just watched as he walked away.

   I went looking for Mero. I found him near the lake. Watching the night sky. I never took the time to actually look at the stars. I sat not too far from him and watched the sky just he did.

   "Nice... Huh?" Mero asked. Yea, it is actually. But I'm still kinda mad at him. So I won't be speaking.
He turned to look at me. I couldn't help but feel bad for how brusied his face is. I did that. I used to be his best friend... It was only a few days ago.

   "It is" I said.
I finally built up the courage to say something.

   He looked up at me. I saw a glimpse of a smile. But it quickly faded away.

   "You know..." I began to say. "I still kinda think of us as friends... Just... With a bit of tough love."

   "I-" he started to say but didn't finish. He slowly looked up but much faster, put his head back down.

   Damn. He kinda got me feeling guilty. I mean I should but... He did cause this on himself. He bullied me and Isen both verbally and physically.

   And just like that I felt my anger building back up. I hadn't even noticed when he decided to look at me. When his eyes met mine, they... Were begging. Begging for no more pain. No more hurt. They also had sorrow.

   I know. Crazy how you can tell that all from just his eyes. But, that's just what I can see.

   "I- I'm sorry..." He started off saying. "I hope you can ever forgive me. I just didn't wanna lose you. You were my bestfriend... A-and I got mixed feelings over time. I had no idea you were gay. I had always hoped that maybe me and you could be... But you chose him. I never wouldve thought that you would choose the kid we always bullied.

   "The one we always taunted... I was selfish. And so self conceited that I... Payed no attention to what would've been best for you. I cared only for myself. I wanted you. And I didn't want anyone taking you away from me..."

   Wow that was deep. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. I can't believe this is how he actually felt. I guess I was selfish too. Selfish for never trying to ever fully understand him.

   Mero stood up, slowly. I watched as he began to walk over towards the dock of the lake.

   The way the moon shined on the lake.

   The atmosphere was nostalgic.

   I couldn't help but be reminded of my love... The one before Isen. How he died because of my friends. How he commited sui-

   I was taken out of my thoughts by a tap on the shoulder.

   I just now noticed how I was full blown crying. Now I feel like everything is my fault. I don't know why. But I just do.

   I looked up at Mero as he stood in front of me. He began to wipe his tears. I began to stand. He backed away. Scared I assume. Wow. To think that him being like this is my fault. I feel bad. Now it's like I'm the bully.

   "I-Im sorry" he backed up even further and started to touch his bruised face. But he threw his hand away as he winced. He is in so much pain... Cause of me.

   "No need to be" I told him as I walked closer to him.

    I walked closer to Mero and hugged him. He was frightened at first. But he soon accepted, and hugged me back.

   I pulled out from the hug. For some reason it was like my body was acting on its own. I did something I knew I would forever regret.

   I... Kissed him.

Now give m3 some feed back my loyal GAYBIEZZZ!!!

Also, sorry I haven't updated in so long... Got caught uo in Minecraft, Drawing,  and reading...

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                                                         --odd_taku