unlikely love letters // quackity

one // the beginning

       me and him got so close, and then.. my alarm started going off. the obnoxious buzzing woke me up out of my sleep. i sighed, rolling over to grab my phone and reading the time. "5:30, right on the dot every morning.." i muttered groggily. this has been going on for the past few days; having a really good dream and my stupid ass alarm waking me up, reality hitting me right in the face. yeah sure it's cliche and all but for some reason it's like my life is becoming the worst part of a movie. the sad, depressing parts that cause heartache. that's what my life's been like for the past week. i just can't get him out of my head even when i desperately want to.

       i lifted my head off my pillow, my head pounding slightly from a headache. i sat up for a while, looking through my phone at all my different social media. seems like the discord group chat with all of us was pretty active, but today i couldn't even function my fingers enough to text them saying i'm awake and i'll be at school today; i felt so shaken up by my tenth dream about him. always him. never anyone else, and i have no clue why. it's not like i have a crush on him or anything.. he's like a brother to me.. but at the same thing these dreams keep being so utterly romantic, it's so strange..

       when i finally chose to roll out of bed and wake myself up a bit, it was 6:00am. i really just sat for half an hour thinking about him, what is wrong with me? i entered the bathroom, my eyes squinting when i turned the light on. "jesus, why do i always have such bad bed head in the morning?" i said to myself, cringing while looking at myself in the mirror. i had grabbed my face cloth, dampening it with water and rubbing my face in the cold water. a sigh came out of my mouth, it was so nice having a bit of cold water on my face to wake me up in the morning, and to let all my night thoughts wash away with it.

        after sitting there with the cloth on my face for a bit, i took it off and put it aside, finally beginning my morning routine. like the daily face washing, teeth and hair brushing and putting on a little bit of makeup so i don't look like a zombie. i looked back at the time, 6:45am. i walked back into my room, choosing an outfit id be content with.. i looked at my closet for a while before finding the perfect fit. a light pink crop top with de-stressed jeans that are cuffed at the bottom, some cute white sneakers and a moon necklace. i looked in the mirror, smiling. "i think i'm ready to get to school." i grabbed my backpack and my headphones, making it down the stairs. i had taken some fruit gummies off the table and made my way down to the bus stop.

        as i get down to the bus stop, i see him. wow, does he ever look great today.. is today a special day is that why he's dressed so nice? okay, shut up y/n, he's looking at you. "hey y/nn! i didn't hear from you this morning, did you sleep in again?" he said in cheerful tone. you gazed up at him, attempting not to be obvious about your liking toward him. play it cool, y/n. "hey alex, sorry that i didn't respond, i didn't have a fantastic morning.." i said with a slight smile. he looked down at me. "sorry that your morning wasn't great, hopefully the rest of the day will be better though." he said, being as encouraging as possible.

        me and him entered the bus and sat together in one of the seats. i gazed out of the window looking at the light blue sky lined with bright red and orange. "looks nice, doesn't it?" he asked me; i looked back over at him and smiled. "it really does." my thoughts of him began to spark up again just by looking at him. why is he so handsome? it's like his eyes sparkle whenever i look at him.. his smile makes me smile.. do i love him? these thoughts were racing through my head until the bus stopped in front of school. i look at the time. 7:15am, an hour early like always. me and alex slipped out of our seat and walked off the bus together, alex automatically looking for aksel and the rest of his friends.

         i followed behind him silently, looking around to other students nearby. i watch my friend, ally come walking up with our other friends. i notice how close she is with aksel, but don't think too much about it, i just wish me and alex could be as close as them. him and aksel started talking right away while i sat and gazed at ally, she looked back. "well well, y/nn. you don't seem to perked up this morning." she said, breaking the silence. "yeah.." i mumbled. she linked arms with me. "i can tell something's bugging you, come on, let's go grab a snack from the cafeteria."