serendipity { fillie }

chapter twelve

I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. It took me a moment to remember the night before, why I was in this bed in the first place. I smile a little at the memory of Finn holding me close until I fell asleep. I turn around in the bed, only to find out that Finn isn't there.

Where did he go? I think to myself. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in as I realize he probably went downstairs.

I get up from the bed and slowly make my way to the door. I open it and walk down the stairs. The moment I reach the kitchen I see Finn baking pancakes. He looks at me. He traces his dark, brown eyes down my small body and stops at my thighs. I look down and realize I was only wearing a t-shirt. His t-shirt to be exact.

I awkwardly try to pull down my shirt. "Morning" i cough awkwardly, snapping him out of his thoughts. "M-morning" he stutters. I slowly walk over to his direction and sit at the table. I look down at my small hands.

Is he going to kick me out? Did he regret last night? We didn't even do anything. How could he regret something? Well we  cuddled, but nothing more. My panicking thoughts stop as soon as he opens his mouth. "How did you sleep?" He asks gentle.

"A-alright, I didn't wake up in the night or anything" I stutter. Why did I tell him I didn't wake up. Like, it's normal that when you are asleep you don't wake up in the middle of the night. God I'm so weird. He must think I'm weird too. Why can't I just simply answer yes?

He just chuckles. "So, do you want your pancakes with syrup, sugar or both?" He asks as he divides the pancakes on two plates. "Just sugar please" I respond kindly. He puts sugar on the pancakes and takes a seat in front of me. 

"Are you- uhm going to leave after we finish breakfast or are you going to stay so we can watch a movie or something?" He asks, not meeting my eyes. I think about staying with him for a moment. It would be nice honestly. I don't think I would've said yes before yesterday but hey, we can be friends. "Yeah sure" I smile at him. He smiles back at me and finishes eating his pancakes.

"You can go upstairs and shower or you can just put on your clothes" Finn tells me. "I'll be downstairs if you need me" he continues. I walk up the stairs and go to his bathroom. I stripped and stared at myself in the mirror.

I hated the way you body looked. My breasts weren't as big as everyone else's, my thighs were a pinch too small and my "hips" -or as you may call - non existent. I sighed and stepped into the shower, and let the warm water pour over me.

How am I ever going to be friends with Finn?He was nice to me yesterday, but was a pain in the ass during the first month school. I snapped out of my thoughts as I hear voices talking downstairs. Is Finn on the phone?

I turn off the shower and grab a towel. I dry off my body and put on my clothes. I walked downstairs and saw a unfamiliar face. "H-hi" I nervously stutter. "Hello" the man answers. Finn walks over to me without saying a word and grabs me by my arm and walks me to the door.

He opens the door, steps outside and drags me with him. "What is going on?" I ask. "Nothing, you need to leave" he says emotionless. Why was he acting like this? "W-What?" I stutter. "You need to leave" he says again. "I heard you the first time, I'm just confused why you would ask me to stay and then kick me out" I say as my eyes get watery.

"That man inside is my boss, you don't need to know him and he doesn't need to know you" he responds. "Why not?" I question him. "You don't need to know everything about me Millie, just leave" he says. I decide not to get any further into this fight and get into my car without saying anything. I walked away from Finn's house and cried on my way home.