Ignorance Isn't Bliss

Prologue

My name is Violet. As you may know, I have a friend whom I grew up with. She and I got along surprisingly well. Her name is Arabella. Until now, I never knew I had a crush on her, nor that she felt the same way. I always thought this was normal for closer friends.

It all started when we were hanging out at my house. We were in my room, sitting next to each other. "So, I wanted to know something, is it possible for you to make the lewd face? That'd be so cool!" I thought she meant being as cute as the anime figures who would. I responded "Not that I know of, but you can try to make me." She looked at me with this determined look in her face. Oddly enough, she first tried what I didn't know would work. Choking. She wrapped her hands around my neck, I could feel her thumbs pressing against my throat, making me gasp slightly and roll my eyes back, my tongue rolling out as well. It was as if time had stopped, her hands seemed like ice as my neck was hot from the pleasure I had received. She was applying just the right amount of pressure, I could breathe but I was asphyxiated just enough to start enjoying it, and I shook a bit. Was that from the pleasure? I didn't know, as it didn't last long as I wanted it to. "Woah, you actually did it!" I was surprised, and lowkey upset when she let her hands go. Cold air surrounded my neck, and I shivered more. I wanted her hands back on my neck. I wanted her to press harder. I wanted her to—Wait what? Why am I thinking this? I tried to take my mind off of that and managed to do so, surprise taking over. "Are you serious??" "Yeah, your eyes rolled back and your tongue stuck out just like in those pictures!" I was amazed that I could do that. However, it wasn't long until she had to leave and I was left in my room feeling dissatisfied. But why? There's no way I want her, do I...? I hoped to God that it wasn't true, but I couldn't get her out of my mind for the rest of the night. Damn, why am I acting so weird when I think about her??