A New Light

Sorry I was such a mess.

•Justin's POV•

I woke up before my alarm went off , but I still reached over and pressed snooze on my phone three times before rolling out of bed.

It was 11 am and I need to get ready to go to Disneyland . Jesse and his husband Justin invited me to go with them and a few others. I am really looking forward to seeing everyone and getting out of the house.

I turned on the shower as I got in, letting the warm water wash over my face as I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. With a sigh I stepped forward so that the water wet the rest of my hair and ran down my back.

I reached out of the glass door and grabbed the iPod dock remote pressing play and listening to the sound of it coming to life as I closed the door. A few seconds later a familiar song came on cancelling out the sound of the water rushing out of the shower head.

In the crowd alone
And every second passing reminds me I'm not home

Troye Sivan.

Hearing this reminded me of the fact that I would be seeing Tyler Oakley today. He was one of the others coming to Disney with us and I hadn't seen him in months. The last time I seen him we spent the whole evening together and Tyler was a mess. I stood under the water remmbering the events that took place that night.

{him remmbering back to 2/1/14 incase no one gets it}

My phone rang as I fished it out of my pocket. The name "Tyler Oakley" flashing across the screen along with a stupid picture of him sitting on my balcony I had taken of him when he wasn't looking.

"Hello? " , I said answering it.

"Hey.. " Tyler answered back not sounding like his normal perky self.

I imitately knew something was wrong.

"Are you okay? " I asked with a conserned tone.

" Yeah..can I come over ? " he said, the sound of hurt in his voice evident.

"Sure what ti.. "

"Now." He answered back, cutting me off before I could finish my question.

"Sure thing babe, I'll see you in a few. " I said not wanting to question him any further .

"Yeah. " he said with a sigh and the line went dead.

About ten minutes later the door bell rang and I knew who it was. I wasn't expecting anyone else , but I wounder how he got here so fast. He must have been in the area when he called because he lives way across town. I hoped off the couch and sprinted over to the door swinging it open. What was on the other side I was not expecting to see.

A tear stained, red cheeked Tyler Oakley.

"Hi.. " he said sniffing as his voice cracked . It seemed saying that simple word was about to send him over the edge again. A few seconds later he was balling.

I grabbed his hand pulling him out of the apartment hall and into my arms. Closing the door as I cradled his head against my chest.

"Shhh, calm down Tyler. It's okay. Whatever it is, you are going to be okay. " I said in a hushed tone , rubbing his back softly as he cried harder at my words.

I pulled away then, taking his hand and guiding him to the couch, grabing a box of tissues off the breakfast bar as we walked by .

As we set down on the couch I took his glasses off, setting them on the coffee table and handing him the box of tissues. He took a few and set the box down before whipping his face and bringing his legs up off the floor to curl up on the spot next to me.

We sat there is silence for a few minutes. The only sounds in the room being his sniffles as he tried to control his crys.

"Tyler, what's wrong? What's got you so upset? " I was the first to speak up, but this only made things worst again. He started crying harder then before.

" I-its just T-T-Troye! " , he said going into another crying fit as he shifted so he could lay on the couch. His head resting aginst my knee as he cried harder and harder.

"What about Troye? What happened ? Just last week you where raving about the kid and now your crying over him? What did he do? Or better yet what did you do? " I said a little harsh then I should have. Just in shock that this was all over that little Twink from Australia that he's always going on about in such positive ways.

Yeah , I had met him a couple times and he seemed like such a nice guy so I had better reason to think it had been Tyler who had done something rather then Troye himself.

Tyler shot straight up looking at me with squinted eyes, tears rolling down his cheeks as he said "How fucking dare you. I didn't do anything. For your information. He thinks that after his visit in 12 days that we should break up. He doesn't want to do this anymore. He thinks we can't have a real relationship because of the distance and he just doesn't want to take it any farther then this. ", he practically shouted at me before throwing himself back down on the couch.

"Aw, Tyler," I said reaching down to stroke his current bleached yellow hair ,"Everything is going to be fine. This happens in all long distance relationships. It will pass its just a hump you both have time get over together. You'll work it out. " I said trying to comfort him , rubbing his shoulder.

He sat up again. Sat up again looking at me as he whipped his face. A small smile, that I knew he didn't genuinely mean, finding his lips.

"Thanks Justin, your right. We can work through this. " he said shaking his head as he talks as if trying to reasure himself. I opened my arms inviting him in for a hug. He took it gladly wrapping his arms around my neck tight as I hugged him close, rubbing his back and patting it.

(end if flash back cause I see sometimes people need that.)

Sighing as I notice the water has gotten colder as I stood here thinking about the last time I really saw Tyler other then the quick 5 minute conversations we have had at party's or what not.

Reaching for the body wash and washing up quickly before the water gets too cold to do any good . Deciding that washing my hair wasn't a nessary thing considering I just watched it yesterday evening. I rinsed and got out. Grabbing the towel and drying my hair as I step out of the glass doors. Turning the music off and wrapping the towel around my waist.

I finished out the rest of my morning routine before heading dressed. I decided to go for just some black jeans and a read botton up. After all I was going to go have fun. I wanted to be comfortable. I grabbed my keys and a hat and headed out the door to go get brunch.

A/N Okay I know this probably isn't any good and no one is going to read it. But I'd you didn read it, feel free to point out any mistakes and I'll make sure to go back and fix it. If this doesn't make since to you then let me explain. 13 days before the Boyfriend tag video, Tyler was with Justin the night of 2/1/14 and Justin said he was hanging out with his bae @//Tyler Oakley and that he loved him and Tyler said I'm sorry I was such a mess last night. Also, I love you. And that's what the flash back was from. Hope it makes since.
Also sorry it's so short.
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