sunshine

chapter one

louis laid down on his back, on his grey colored bed sheets, letting out a sigh of exhaustion. a blade on his right hand and blood on his left wrist.

he felt numb - just the way he liked.

it had been three days. three long days since he had been clean, but after what he'd experienced today, he just needed something to distract him from the painful memory that kept on replaying on his head. it was too painful to think that he, himself can't even stop his mind from remembering an awful site.

the numbness didn't last long when a burning sensation was spreading from his wrist throughout his whole arm. it was painful - but less painful than what he saw at school earlier.

"hmm.." a disgusting noise echoed from the halls. louis was still trying to hold on to his algebra book as he slammed his locker shut.

"my hands are a bit full, now aren't they?" there it goes again. the low husky voice was way too familiar for louis. he didn't even have to look to know who was making such noises. the one who made the noises was breathtakingly beautiful but the sound was really disturbing.

he didn't want to see what was happening but he had no other choice since his next class was not that further from where the noise came from. he took a deep breath and let it out slowly, gaining strength. and then there he saw, the person who had had his heart broken by a couple times... caressing alice's breasts. and not just that. they were face sucking.

he pulled his fringe down to cover his eyes from seeing such a view. tears were creeping to slide down his cheeks but he wiped them away hastily.

"going somewhere faggot?"

louis knew it was harry.. louis knew harry knew louis liked him. and louis knows harry doesn't like him back. hell. louis knows. he knows harry hates him.

he chuckled deeply and sounds of mouths sucking each other invaded the whole hall again.

it hurt.

no, not the stinging of his wrist. what hurts is that louis knew harry will never ever treat him any better than shit.

it fucking hurt like fucking hell.