Dear Diary

Friend x Friend

Hey. I just got done ranting to myself while bawling my eyes out so I'm just gonna give a quick rant about what's happening.

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Alright. So I have two very best friends, right? Let's call the boy, Boy and the girl, Girl, okay?

So, Boy has been my best friend since 4th grade and now I'm in 8th but before Boy had a friend that he met in kindergarten named, Girl. They've been best friends ever since and he had introduced me to Girl but she didn't like me at first but now we're all best friends, okay?

Well, around Halloween of 2019, I had gotten sick with a nasty common cold, okay, so I had to miss school. This is where Boy started catching feelings for Girl.

Boy had always been at my side before he had started dating Girl so I could count on him for anything, okay, but since I had missed school for like 3 days, I wasn't there to talk to him so he was forced to stay with Girl for 3 days and eventually caught feelings, okay.

I have nothing against them dating, I personally think it's cute and adorable and I ship it so much but Boy and Girl had been glued to each other once they started dating, okay, that's fine, it's normal, it's puppy love. WRONG.

They would barely talk to me and Boy had me carry all of his stuff to the classroom and take down his chair while he and Girl when to go to Breakfast, and I was okay with it for a while until it became a regular thing for 1 month.

Off track:

Hold on, I'm getting a little off topic bit holy hell, I was pissed off. Why the hell was I his maid? But I couldn't say no, he's my best friend so, I put up with it.

Back on track:

I couldn't talk to my best friends and I had to make new ones but I didn't want new ones, I love my friends, no matter what.

So...today in class, we had to work on a project for social studies and...they wouldn't stop talking to each other. Oh yeah, I sit right by Boy and to the right of Boy is Girl.

Boy had his back to me and I was like, "Whatever, it's nothing new so fuck me." And I was working on my project, peacefully and happily...until I saw them cuddling...and having fun without me...and it hurts so much...do you understand how bad it hurts? It's like my heart was ran over by a lawnmower...

So I turned away and started tearing up...and neither noticed...and they had been told to get to work so they were working and I was like, "oh, it's over, good." But then Boy gets worried over Girl for something that wasn't apparent to me but I was still like, "Wtf?? Why the hell is he caring for her when nothing seems wrong? What about me? Don't you see me?" And I know I sound so selfish but if you've felt how I feel, you have to learn to be selfish for once.

So...if cried even more but not enough to have tear streaks down my face, I held them in.

Look, if you're in a relationship and you have a best friend, make sure you're not making them feel like shit, okay? Shit like that really hurts...thanks for reading.