Love Is Pain

Grieving

Dear diary.... Dear book..... Dear whatever you start this off with. It's been month's since Damon and Bonnie became trapped on the other side and let me say it hasn't been easy for any of us. Losing one of my close friends and my daughter's dad at the same really torn me. I knew had love for Damon because he is Miranda's father after all. But when he got trapped over there all I did was cry and tried to think of how we can bring him back. Elena and I tried to think of what we could do to try and get Bonnie and Damon back.

Miranda took her dad's passing really bad. She didn't talk to anyone for almost about a week. She wasn't herself anymore. Before she use to joke around and be the life of the party. Now she hardly talks and she wants to be alone more.

Stefan tried to be there for me and help me with anything he can. But you could tell Damon not being around was also effecting him and that sorta effected us. Shortly after Damon and Bonnie passed Stefan and I sorta broke up. I still lived at the boarding house with my kids but Stefan disappeared. He will still pop in and see how Zack and Miranda are doing. There were some days he will take them and have them for a few night's.

"You okay?" Stefan says snapping me out of my daze

"Yeah." I closed my diary and looked up at him. I'm not gonna lie I really did miss him I missed us. He walked into the room. "What are you doing here?"

"Miranda left her book bag in the car." He says. "I wanted to see how you are doing?" How was I doing? Was the question I asked myself over and over again. One minute I'm fine and I'm accepting what happened then the next minute I'm crying and wishing this was just a nightmare. "You okay?" Stefan placed his hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah." This was the first time in awhile him and I were this close. "I'm a mess Stefan." The moment I said that I broke down crying. He didn't say anything instead he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tight. I barrier my head in his chest and broke down crying. I know it's weird crying on your ex because your other ex is stuck on the other side.

"It's gonna be alright." He says. I felt him kiss the top of my head and that made me feel a little good. We pulled apart and he wiped my tears away. Stefan was always the one that there for me in these sad situations. I can tell he was in pain and hurting himself but instead of grieving over Damon being gone he is over here comforting me because I'm a mess." We're gonna find a way to bring him and Bonnie back."

"How?" My voice cracked." We've been trying everything and nothing has worked." He stands up.

"What about Klaus?" He says and I looked at him confused." Maybe Klaus has some witch friend's-"

"Klaus? As in Klaus Mikaelson?"

"Do you know another Klaus?"

"Nope." I stood up. "The last time Klaus and I talked wasn't a very good conversation." He didn't say anything at all. Instead he walked out the room. I wiped my tears and walked out the room. I looked in Zack's room and I seen Stefan.

"How has he been? Did he sleep throughout the night?"

"His fever broke last night." He picks up a sleeping Zack." I hate the whole teething."

"I don't remember Miranda being like this."

"Miranda had fevers and -"

"Hello!!" We heard Caroline yell. "Amanda? Elena?"

"You didn't lock my door?" I say

"I didn't know I had to." We both walked out the room. "How is Elena?"

"She's taking it real hard." We both walked down the stairs.

"Stefan?" Caroline says confused. She looked at me then back at him." Hi. How are you?" She gave him a side hug. "Where are you staying at now?"