With my hands i try to stop my tears who are making its way through my eyes. I dont want to cry, I want to show them how strong I can be, but I can't. I have no straight left. I'm broken, not only inside but physically too. Day after day they bully me. Day after day am I hoping that someday they will stop. Day after day I am praying so they would finally accept me and leave me alone. But no, everyday it's the same. Its getting worse everyday. I can't take it anymore!
"You b****! I'm talking to you! Why are you ignoring me you ugly!"
I was so spaced out that I didn't hear them yelling at me. I slowly take my hands off my face and look at them with watery eyes. I see them laughing at me, amused at how broken I am. Aren't they shameful? Don't they have any guild?
I'm slowly losing my faith in humanity, there is no one who is kind, there is nothing positive in this world, in this cruel world. No one likes me, everyone hates me. Even my Lord. Putting me in this situation. I must be a burden for everyone! I'm starting to doubt, doubt about the purpose of this world, about the existence of my life, about my Lord.
I dont know what to do, I can only think off negative thoughts. Maybe I should make an end to my life. Just maybe...
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Bullying is a bad thing, we all know that. In most cases they are jalouse of what you have, but other cases it's because they struggle themselves and bully to make themselves feel better. Yes its a wrong way to bear your test. But not everyone is the same. You can turn to Allah, go pray and cry it all out. This is the best relieve in the world. Don't push everyone and Allah away. We all need space, but we also need each other too. But don't worry for everything there is a reason and after every hardship there is relieve.
Prophet Nuh (as) dealt with many hardships too, even his own son(s) didn't want to follow his father.
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