The Troublemaker And The Nerd(Koli)

May 9th

quick authors note. just wanted to say thank you for reading this and commenting and voting that makes me happy. also just a quick thing to say i have changed the way this book will be written quite a bit bc i feel like just writing school work stuff will get boring and repetitive. anyway enjoy.

i woke up to the sun shining in through my blinds. i could hear birds outside chirping, and there were the quiet sounds of cars passing down the street. there was also the lingering thought that last night was a dream. a  beautiful dream, that i hope i don't wake up from. luckily i haven't heard from that negative voice yet. i can just lay comfortably in my own solitude. i felt my phone vibrate. i looked away from the window and grabbed it from my nightstand. it was a text from oliver.

oliver: goodmorning handsome, is that too soon to say? oh well. good morning.

i smiled and responded.

me: me handsome? no no, i think you mean you. but good morning.

oliver: nope i definitely meant you. :)

i decided to get up and get ready for school. i peaked out my bedroom door. "mom? dad?" i yelled. i got no response. okay so they're gone, great.
as i was putting my shoes on i heard a quiet knock at my door. i stood up straight and walked to the door. i opened it to reveal oliver standing there. "hi" i smiled up at him "hi, figured I'd walk you to school" he said pulling me into his arms. "wow what a gentleman." "i try, so are you ready?" "yes let me just grab my bag and we can go."

we walked into the school building holding hands. it felt like everyone was staring at us, but I'm sure no one actually was. "alright well I've got to get to math class. I'll see you later." oli said letting go of my hand and putting his hands on my hips. "okay, pay attention, and do the work. i don't want your dad to kill me if you fail." "he wouldn't, and i will. i have actually got good grades on my assignments recently." "that's because you are incredibly smart, you just never tried." "that's true, but now I've got a super smart boyfriend to help me." "oh shut up. go to class before you're late." "okay fine, goodbye." he gave me a soft kiss on the lips. i felt my cheeks go red. after he left i walked quickly and quietly to art class. i took my usual seat next to jack. "hey so uh, you mind explaining what's going on with you and oliver." jack asked once i got my stuff out on my desk. "i don't know what happened jack. i found myself enjoying being around him. i tried staying away from him, but it was hard. i don't know how to explain how i feel. is it bad?" "no it's not bad, just a bit shocked, because you hated him a couple weeks ago, and now you're making out with him in the hallway." "we didn't make out and i know it came as a shock to me as well, but I'm happy to be in this relationship with him. i don't know what'll happen but for now I'm happy. i am still valedictorian and now i am in my first real relationship." "well I'm happy for you kell, just don't get hurt." "what do you mean?" "I've just heard Oliver tends to just hump and dump." "those could be rumours. you know?" "i don't alot of people have said this." "but do you have any actual proof of this? or had any conversation with him." "woah kellin, calm down. I'm just telling you to be careful." "i will, okay."

the idea that Oliver could be using me sat in my mind the rest of the morning. i walked quietly to the library, for our tutor session.
i took a seat and waited for him to show up. he walked in the doors and smiled at me. that damn smile.

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all day my mind went back to what Jack said about oliver only using people. would i be self conscious to think he would? or would i be a fool to think he wouldn't be using me for sex?
of course you'd be a fool to think he isn't going to use you. do you actually think he likes a know it all like you? you're good for one thing and that's being a best at everything you do. can't do that with a loser of a boyfriend.
he's not a loser, and you're wrong. being good at everything isn't that great. i wish you'd just go away.
oh you naive fool, when will you realize I am you. i am your own thoughts.
well you aren't the nicer part of my thoughts, so I'd prefer if you just left me alone, you're tearing my head apart.
get rid of him then.
no.
then I'll continue to pester you until you go back to your old routine.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.
i heard a knock on my bedroom door.
"Kell, honey are you okay." my mom asked. was i okay? "yeah mom I'm fine. just had a bug on me is all." "alright, please watch your language." "will do."

i decided to swallow what little pride i had and texted Oli.

me: hey can i ask you a question without sounding insecure?

oliver: yeah of course.

me: are you only going to use me?

oliver: no what makes you think I'd use you?

me: just something jack said to me this morning has me feeling all over the place.

oliver: i don't know what he told you, or what he's heard but i wouldn't use you.

me: i know. i just didn't know what to think.

oliver: people aren't going to want to see us in a relationship and or be happy. so there's gonna be alot of problems, but the important thing is that we trust each other and talk to each other about things.

me: i know. i trust you.

oliver: good, now stop worrying that pretty little head of yours. :)

a/n: bit of a smaller chapter. but i figured I'd make an update.