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Life surprisingly still somehow surprises me Nono-
"Surprise?"
That's what that bitch had the audacity to say to me and I nearly lunged at him. How dare the P E R F E C T Na Jaemin say hello to me after throwing his precious life away? Sure he's just as much of an orphan as me (and you used to be) but still, he managed to be doing so well and he was so happy in class and everyone loved him. All I have is you Nono, nobody around me loves me. You were all I had.
"I thought you died. Why are you even alive? You wasted your life, orphans like us don't graduate but y-you could have and you threw it all away Na Jaemin. For what?" I asked him, spitting his name like venom, clearly upset. I was so jealous of him, ever since we were all kids he was the favourite at the home, he was the favourite to everyone, he was the favourite to me. He was practically the orphanage celebrity.
He doesn't look as offended as I intended him to be as he points down to the child clinging onto him, who is very clearly his child. "Her name is Haeun. Thank you for bringing her to me." He tells me while picking the long-haired four year old up and their resemblance is truly uncanny causing my mind to go mad. The same beautifully bright big eyes, cute little pout and grossly happy expression.
"How did this happen?! We live in a freaking BOYS home, girls aren't just around everyday and you can't impregnate a male so who was it? We even go to an ALL boys academy. Jaemin you've ruined your life? Couldn't you have gotten 'it' aborted? You're seventeen for god's sake?! You don't need her." Once the 'A' word leaves my mouth the realisation sets in that I've truly fucked up.
I watched Jaemin's face twist up in rage, horror and pinned up anger so before I could apologise for basically telling him he should have aborted his daughter a fist collides with my nose sending deep red blood pouring from my nose down onto my button up and blazer. He held Haeun tightly, rubbing the back of her head, kissing her forehead, "I'm sorry baby, he's just a bad man. Bad people hurt others. Of course I need you." He whispered quietly in the child's ear which sent a ping of pain into my chest; that hurt. Sure countless people tell me how much I suck daily but it's different hearing it from someone you used to not only envy but admire.
So maybe I am a bad man Nono. Who says things like that about children? At least he is taking care of his child unlike my parent's, his parent's or your parent's. I'm always mean for no reason. I'm going to die alone and unhappy because It's so hard for me to shut my big fat stupid mouth Nono. I bet you're even disappointed in me today.
