Reflections | Jenkai

━✧ Six

February 22nd, 2017

Jennie beamed in excitement and happiness as she contemplated the small trophy in her hands. She admired every detail of it, her smile never leaving her pink lips. She pressed her lips together as she traced the silver-colored treble clef trophy with her fingers. She smiled again as she read the engraved note. 

"Gaon Chart Music Awards Rookie Of The Year." She quietly read out loud, unable to control her smile. 

"Oh! Our Jendeukie is smiling!" Jisoo teased with a bright smile before taking a seat next to Jennie.

"I can't believe it." Jennie admitted, her eyes never leaving the trophy. "We didn't win only one award tonight, we won three. Isn't it incredible?" She asked her old friend.

"It is. I can't believe it either. We won against great artists tonight."

"Is it luck?"

"Hmmm..." Jisoo thought deeply. "It could be a bit of luck, but wouldn't it also be thanks to our Blinks' hard work?" Jisoo smiled as she thought of their fans she cherished oh so much.

"Do you think they know how grateful we are for them?" Jennie wondered.

"I don't know... But they should!"

"I wish we will be able to release many new songs and content to thank them for working so hard for us."

"I'm sure we will be able to!" Jisoo reassured her friend. 

"Unnie." Jennie quietly called out for her older friend. "Could you imagine we would get this far so quickly back when we were still trainees?"

"I didn't. Did you?"

"Not really..." Jennie admitted. "Truthfully, as much as I wanted to debut quickly, I was afraid."

"Afraid?" Jisoo asked in surprise.

"Yes." Jennie bit her lips as she thought deeply of the way she used to think when she was still a trainee. "Back then, I was afraid that if I debuted, if we debuted, we would always be compared to 2NE1. I was afraid people wouldn't like us since we were a new girl group. I was afraid they would be disappointed with us. I never thought we would get that much love from the day we debuted. I never thought we would get to win such important distinctions so soon in our careers."

Jisoo cracked a smile at her younger friend's confession. "Ah, our Jendeukie thought so deeply about this." She patted Jennie's head lovingly. "You always were more serious than I ever was."

"That's not true." Jennie denied.

"It is! Back in the day, my biggest concerns were not debuting with you, and not debuting at all."

"You should've been more confident! I always told you that you would debut, and that we would debut together."

"I know." Jisoo nodded as she smiled, thinking back of the past. "But even though you always said it, I was afraid I wouldn't debut with you. Out of all the girls we ever trained with, I always wanted to debut with you the most. We went through so much together. I couldn't imagine debuting without you. And what I was even more afraid of was imagining you would debut without me." She paused and pressed her lips together. "I was lacking a lot back then. I feel like I still am compared to all of you. I'm not the best vocalist. I'm not the best rapper. I'm not the best dancer."