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chapter 1

Tick tock. I've been here for a while now, the minutes are slowly ticking away- minutes to hours to days to weeks. It has been hard to keep track of time since the accident ...I don't remember jumping and I don't remember hitting my head so hard I almost died.... Ever since I got here the nurses told me some things about my life, not all of them, not everything. I have to find those memories myself. I have to leave the hospital today and I feel like I am missing someone, I just don't know who. All I remember is my name and that's about it. The nurse took me to my house, I have a guardian to watch over me and to make sure I regain my memories.The air got colder, it felt weird to be back here having no memories and no trace of this place but I went to bed and my back aches so much, I closed my eyes for a minute but only just a minute. When I opened my eyes I looked around and saw an image of a girl, she had golden hair and bright blue eyes. It's been a while, I thought to myself, it's been too long since I've seen that face. I needed to find this missing person in my life, she was my childhood friend but that's all I remember...I have to find her what was her name?! Then it clicked. Emily. Emily was her name I had to find her but how she could be anywhere right now. I went to the bus stop, I got onto the bus, I paid and sat on a seat to go to the police station I took a deep breath and went in, my heart is racing I could feel it beating against my ribs, I stepped into the police station my hands got sweaty and cold but hot at the same time the young lady in the front desk asked me, "Can I help you with something?" The words couldn't get to her I stuttered "I-I need to find a girl, could you help me find her?" I forced the words to come out of my mouth I showed her a picture of the Emily she glanced at me, then at the picture ." well you have to give me more info, is she missing, or something?" the name on her desk was Ashley. She made me take a seat, I saw her from the corner of my eye, she was calling the police officer named Jeff, he came from the stairs and asked: "what's up?" Ashley replied, "this boy came in saying his name was John and that his friend is missing and her name was Emily, see if you could go talk to him."The officer nodded he walked over to me making eye contact," so you must John"." yes" I replied he asked if he could take me to his office to talk in private, I said yes. he could see I was kinda shaken. he asked if I needed water or something to calm me down.i said no but I could feel my handshaking. I didn't want to waste time so we asked what I remember "well" I started to say "I hardly remember what is my life is right now. all I know is my name and her name is Emily..." I was trying to remember something, anything but there was nothing I could find. it was blankI snapped back. He was asking me, Are you ok?"I reassured him, "I am fine."Be said, "Well, we will try our hardest to find Emily and when we find evidence other than the picture we have we will call you, ok?" I nodded then he escorted me out of the office I went back home and flopped into bed, I shut my eyes and tried to sleep. It's been hours I had been tossing and turning but when I slept I drifted off into a dream. I could hear a girl giggle and a blur of a girl with golden hair, I couldn't see her face then I heard her ringing ring, ring my heart was thumping it was my phone that's what was ringing it was the police station they told me to come to look at things and talk to her parents. i rushed to the police station I burst through the door and rushed to Ashley's desk, they all stare at me rushing to find Jeff. When I got to him he could see I was panicking. "Two visits in one day, John?" He told me to calm down and have a seat then I saw two, figures standing in Jeff's office. He told me to go in and it's going to be okay, I agreed. ,Emily's mom's face looked just like hers so much like hers - but exhausted and older. Tired. Sad. She snapped me back to my present right then she spoke, "You're John, right?""Yes." She continued, "Well all I can tell you is that she is in town. I don't know where she is - we just arrived we can contact her if you like." I froze. They just got into town? I suddenly have a vision of the first time I took Emily to the amusement park and we went to the Ferris wheel. Then it blurred I couldn't hear Emily's mom saying, 'Hello,' multiple times then I stumbled back into a chair. Emily's mom's eyes widened as she saw me fall back." are you ok" she rushed over to me I came back to reality."Emily is ok, right?","yes, she is fine now we are going to go to her house and see if you can talk to her" we rushed into the car and drove for what felt like forever we pulled up into the house and when I saw her house it was huge, I felt dizzy all of a sudden but I didn't care I had to find her I went to knock on the door after a couple of minutes she opened the door..it's was her she looked shocked and confused "is it you john",y-yes" she told me to come inside and talk, I took off my shoes and sat on her couch there was awkward silence in the room then she spoke "so I guess is should tell you now", tell me what!?, I was starting to panic," how much do you know about yourself john?" I nudged "I don't know much" she had a worried look on her face when she spoke" john... I knew you were suicidal and depressed and you had been fighting a lot but one day we went walking your favourite bridge and you told me to look away and as I was turning around I could see y-you jump off of the bridge " she turned to me with tears with her eyes then it finally came to me Emily was my childhood friend... I left her to herself... I remember it all, I remember jumping now I remember what I had done I had done it "I am sorry" I rushed over to Emily...she reassured me it was fine and said" remember when we feel off of trees and we sneaked out to go to the ice cream?","I do it was fun" I suddenly felt happy, I didn't feel worried anymore... I don't have to live in fear anymore