just some sad stuff

Him

Here I sit trying to remember the last time i had him, everytime I try to touch him and bring him back he pulls away
My heart twists and turns thinking of why he doesn't want me i want him i really do but it seems like he doesn't, every day he moves farther and farther away I want to feel his love again I want to feel his hand around mine, his breath on my neck the more I think the more I choke..i choke on the tears that threaten to fall I sleep alone thinking of him..but does he think about me? Does he care about the times I cry hoping for him to come and hold me? I don't know how to feel I start to fall down that numbing hole that I never seem to be able to get out of , I start to see the light...the light that i want to reach but something always seems to push me down and this time its him I want him but he doesn't want me, I want to feel his lips on mine i want him to take my breath away but the only thing taking my breath are the tears that fall because of him, because of him I fall curling into a ball drowning myself in the tears of heartbreak I wish to hear those words again, those words that keep me alive....that keep me from drowning...that keep me from falling again