Suicide - gd

Chapter 19

As my legs shakes the whole chair , I look down at what's left of my nails . Bad habits. I had been watching the door to the principles office for at least 15 minutes and I was thinking of giving up when I saw Justin's face appear behind it , followed by graysons.

As I jump up Grayson looks at me and back down to floor. Justin stared at me before saying,
"Hey you should uh, come to my party tonight . Everyone will be there and ide like it if you woukd come?"
"Mmm idk Justin" I scrunched my nose.
"Come on , for me . It will be fun."
And with that he left still admiring me as he did.

"Grayson , talk to me." I put my hands on his chest but he brushes them off.
"Just don't Louisa , please . Just don't." He sighs and my face drops. I mean it's not completely my fault but it's not entirely his either.

My head was pounding and I needed to get away from everyone so I left. I walked home and slept . I slept for the rest of the day and only then I woke up due to a buzz from my phone .

Justin: hey lou . Are u comin? It's gonna be a good night and even better if u come ;)
Me: umm Idk sm happened today
Justin: exactly I can take your mind off things ;)
Me: okay fuck it what's your address?
Justin: check the pocked in the jacket u were wearing today everything's written on the piece of paper
Me: you slipped a note into my pocket?!
Justin: just come 3>

I don't bother changing I was already in a good outfit.

I texted Arden:
Me: Put on something nice we going out tonight !
Arden: what
Me: just meet me at mine in 5 and don't be late

At Justin's

"Louisa you actually came." Justin hugs me at the door and then looks at Arden.
"And you are?"
"I'm Arden nice to meet u." She pushed past him and in through the door before looking back and saying.
"I'll be by the drinks if you need me , go have fun lou."

I laugh n look back at Justin who's staring at me.
"Right let's get you a drink!" Justin says.
"Oh no it's fine I brought my own-"
"No I insist ! My house ,my drinks!" He replies and grabs my hand leading me the kitchen.

As he pours me a drink of vodka mixed with the tiniest bit of coke I look around and watch eveyone , not a care in the world , dancing .

My thoughts were interrupted by Justin handing me my drink.
I smile and chug the whole cup before asking for a refil.

"I like this Louisa." He smirks and reaches for the vodka.

2 hours later

I had been dancing with Justin for what felt like hours , grinding on him and kissing him , even tho I could barely see straight and I could definitely not walk in a straight line to save my life.
"Let's go upstairs." He whispers in my ear as he lead me up the stairs to his room and I stumble after him.

(*sensitive topic coming up*)

I fall into the door and Justin opens it and grabs my waist. He starts kissing me and I do the same. Me being barely being able to stand , he pushes me on the bed and starts to take off my dress.

"Justin I I don't think this is a good idea." I murmur , sluring my words so you could only just makeout what I was saying.

But he didn't stop.

"Justin ." I tried to stop his hands from undressing me but he was too strong.
"You'll thank me for this later ,baby" he whispered in my ear and started kissing my neck.
"No stop, I can't" I try to struggle free of his grip but I'm no match for his strength and I'm now naked on his bed incapable of doing anything about it.

He looks at me up and down before pulling down his trousers .
"Don't . please" I shake my head slowly and silently cry.

But he didn't listen he pushed inside of me slowly at first but the more I told him to stop the faster he went and the more I tried to get away the harder he gripped my wrists.

I gave up.

There was nothing I could do but wait for it to be over.

He finally stopped . He just got up and left . Leaving me on his bed naked and crying . I didn't know what to do , there was nothing I could do. But I knew I needed to leave and quickly. So I called the only person I could.

Ten minutes later

"What the fuck were u doing at Justin's party?" Grayson asks as I get in car.
But I don't answer , I just wait for him to drive.
"Lou?"
"Louisa."

He reaches for my hands but I pull them away .
"Right Louisa you need to tell me what's happened."
"I" I couldn't speak I forgotten how to but I did know how to cry , so that's what I did . I cried and Grayson hugged me. The tightest he ever had before . I cried into his jumper and I couldn't stop.

"Shh everything will be okay."