Lost in thought~The beginning

Chapter one~Ugh

Waking up to an annoying, let alone late, alarm clock. I open my eyes slowly, batting them trying to maintain focus. Getting out of bed I groan. Work, then dinner for my fiancé,and then sleep. Hopefully. My phone begins vibrating and I answer in a groggy voice, "Hello?" a peppy voice replies, clearly they have been awake for a while though it is only 7 am, "Hiya kitten" recognizing the voice I smile. It's my fiancé. I Katelyn Marie Jones will soon become Katelyn Marie Smith. My nickname has been Kitten since i have been a child and i still smile upon hearing it.

Gideon, my fiancé, tells me of his morning. He tells me how he has bought me gifts because the wedding is in two weeks. We hang up shortly after due to him being at work. I look into the mirror and see what no one else sees. When I look into the mirror, I see an anorexic girl with depression and scars everywhere. Other people see a 80 pound girl with an ass. No one sees my pain because they all focus on my beautifully painted on smile. The only person who makes me feel happy is Gideon.

Getting dressed for my "Skimpy girls with style" photoshoot, I brew a fresh pot of coffee so that Gideon may have some when he gets home. I skip out of the house after locking up and jog hurriedly to my car.

Arriving at the alleyway where the shoot was taking place, my photographer greets me smiling. I giggle giving him a kiss on either cheek as if we were famous. Tate giggles with a flawless smile saying "Babes! You're here! Flaunt it today. Flaunt it all you little slice of hell." He winks pushing me toward my spot. I am dressed as a slutty guitar player, dressed in only high end clothing and shoes. I wink at Tate then at him again, my assistant well my bff but he couldn't get paid for that so we said assistant. Barry gives me a thumbs up and so does Tara,Abbi,Joanne,Tanner,Jack,and Steve. I do just as Tate said. I flaunt it all.

After the shoot, the crew and I go out for Starbucks. Everyone ordered Carmel Machiattos and Cinnamon rolls. Shit. Here comes party pooper. Jeremy struts in and scoffs. "Hey great to see you Jeremy! Working it as usual!" I lie, Jeremy brightens up and says "Oooh you too girl! I see a ring did that hot man propose? Ugh me and Mark broke up, he is such a bitch!" I scoff and giggle with a small sexy smirk in the corner of my mouth. "Oh my! And yes he proposed." The crew and I leave Jeremy, throwing away our trash then parting outside of starbucks. I drive home quicker than usual.