𝑺𝑲𝑰𝑵𝑺 𝑳𝑰𝑳 𝑷𝑬𝑬𝑷

★︎𝑆𝐼𝑋𝑇𝐸𝐸𝑁 ★︎

☹︎𝙑𝙀𝙉𝙐𝙎 ☹︎

⚠️ 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 ⚠️

brian and i went to convince athena to not do this. we rushed to get to where she was but there were already officers surrounding her. they had her in cuffs talking to her.

"athena!" i screamed and tried to run to her only to be held back by a policeman. the same policeman who was there when the situation happened. athena looked at me with fear in her eyes, she started to cry while talking to the officer.

"please let me talk to her. she didnt do it, i know she didnt!" i yelled trying to get through.

"we cant let you." he said, they took her out of the room leading her down to the cop cars.

"im so sorry, venus. i love you." she said to me on her way out. fuck! fuck! why cant anything ever fucking go right.

"athena, tell them! please dont do this. we're gonna help you!" i tried to go after her.

"you cant, ve, you cant help me." they took her out to the police car stuffing her in the back. tears flooded my eyes. she pointed to her eyes then chest then to me.  

ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ

but thena i love you too and ill help you out of this. i promise to you i will. brian gripped me in a hug, i cried into his arms.

"how am i suppose to help her, dad?" he sighed and kissed my head.

"ill figure it out, ve, i promise i will." he hugged me tighter.

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i sat in my room, by myself. missed calls and texts from gus and the gang. i was so high right now, the only way i could cope. nothing felt right. nothing felt okay, just when i thought things were gonna be okay. i start to lose it.

i laid in my bed feeling so numb. i felt like i was floating, in another place. i hid the drugs better than last time. i watched as my ceiling was spinning. my phone started to ring again, i left it alone. i didnt want to be bothered.

i was so on the edge. i touched the scars on my arm, im so tired of this. fighting twenty- four seven. when will it end? why cant i just be happy?

i find a boy who's really into me and i fuck up before we're even in a relationship.

i find a new family who would love me and i fucked that up too.

i find a way to help my sister and shes being manipulated into a confession.

i cant have a good life. i swore to myself that id protect athena. for her safety and for my mama. and i cant even do that. im sorry mama. i know i said id do better and im sorry that i cant save athena. i promised id protect her and i cant even do that.

"venus?" brian called. i couldnt move. i was floating. "hey, you okay?"

"yeah." i replied bluntly, i tried to pick up my phone but dropped it from shaking.