Should I?.....

chapter 1

As I hide under my bed sheets hot tears running down my face , covering my ears hoping and mumbling "Make it stop. Make them stop."  While everyone else in the house having a normal day not ever noticing I'm not ok.
Why don't they ever notice.....oh yeah I forgot they aren't  my real full blooded family. You see my mother never wanted me so she left me with my dad who also didn't want me but still keeped me. He also cheated on her when they where together. I mean at least he didn't abandon me like my soulless of a mother. That's the only good part sadly. *Sigh* Yet he never acknowledges me like his other kids he had as will. They don't like me as much ether they say since I'm not their full blooded sister. Stupid am I right?
"Hey Elly" my brother Sam said while he jump onto my bed. Still hiding underneath my covers yet listening to him making a joke that just made my day like every other school day started. "Come and eat pancakes before we are late for school. Or you going starve yourself again and finally kill yourself today?"  He says while laughing his head off.  I roll my eyes even tho he can't see me. "Sam you jokes fucking suck." Kathy shouted from her room that's across from mine. I mean she wasn't wrong they do suck. "Oh like you can come up with something better" Sam responded. As Kathy was about to respond Jane my step mother shouted from the kitchen "Sam! Kathy! Leave your sister alone she doesn't need y'all pestering her! Now get down here and eat before y'all are late!
Oh right I forgot my step mom is the only one who shows empathy towards me around here. At least I have one person who thinks I worthy around here.

~few minutes pass~
As I got finished getting ready for school Jane came up stairs with a plate of blueberry pancakes and scrambled eggs with orange juice on the side on a tray.
As I stayed at my dresser watching her walk and took a set on my bed with the tray still in her hands. Here we go again I thought to myself.
"Honey.... sweetheart you need to eat it's been almost a week and your father is still suggesting we send you to get some help and....." I just stood fiddling with the end of my black hoodie...watching as Jane started to cry once again.
"...leave you there and....and never seeing you again.... because.."
"I know I know because dad's tired of my stupid issues and send me off to some different family..." I say with a sigh
"Honey they are not stupid neither are you..I still can't believe your mother just left you and if I would of know your father was still with her..I wouldn't of never had said yes to a second chance.."
" I know I know but I'm glad father chose you over that scum she was cheating on him way way before he decided to get with you plus I glad your my mother Jane. Even tho dad hates me because I look like my mother but at least I have you."
She smiled and gave me a reassuring hug and said she had to go and wake up Lace for her dance class she has every 8am before she goes to school.
Lace is 5 , the only other that loves me to death.
I decided to eat after all it's what I owe to Jane for being the only parent figure in my life and told me the story of my bitch of a mother and father.

As I walked through the double doors of another hell hole called school I spotted the one person I thought that was out of my life for sure.....Jason Greenville...