To start off I firstly consider myself a nobody. My greatest hopes and dreams are some that are not very significant. I mean you really aspires to be a history teacher. Me that who. The odds of me actually getting anywhere feel lower than they should. I'm not trying to say that this should be some kind of pity party because truly I do not wish for pity. This is something created purely out of boredom and a way for me to express myself.
I feel like if I were to suddenly drop dead then there should be more to show for it than some headstone that says 'Hereth lies this bitch.' Although to be realistic that headstone would have a greater chance at being seen.
My point is that the future is unknown and I hate that. I have extreme anxiety over that. One of my worst fears is the future. So I don't even understand why I even doing thing. Maybe a part of me hopes this could be a good coping mechanism or maybe I've finally lost it.
I'm willing to find out.
