solace [bsd (various) x reader]

perfect [dazai osamu]

ok i decided to use lowercase until the end for consistency...
aha idk abt yall but im smelling another angst ahead! man idk what i was going thru before ... i kept making angst ...
yes i'll keep making more LOL

TRIGGER WARNING: mentions of suicide

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you just didn't know how and why did you fall for that guy. that certain guy with chocolate brown locks that matched well with his mischievous eyes that reflected the same color.

he is the same guy who loves to tease you yet at the same time the same guy who brings chills down your spine, good or bad.

that same guy who acts pretty goofy yet at the same time can make you shit your pants because of that fantastic brain and intellect of his.

dazai osamu; that's the name of the guy you, unfortunately, fell in love with.

constantly, he'd visit the café you're working in, with or without his subordinates. he's definitely a pain in the ass and needs to pay for his tab.

like, right away. please, dazai-san. settle your tab.

if the other employee isn't around to nag him about it sweetly, it would be your job to do so.

and here he comes along! replying to you with the words, "would you like to commit double suicide with me?"

oh lord.

but nevertheless, he still somehow managed to sway your heart... not to commit double suicide though!

because after all, haven't you committed it already with him?

dazai entered uzumaki and you were the only one around as they ran for their errands, even the manager.

you greeted him according to protocol before continuing to compute for the expenses and the gains for today's service.

dazai sat on the counterbar, his face nearly a breath away.

oh, this tease.

"what's up?" he questions, looking down at what you are doing as you were trying hard not to get distracted.

you sighed and faced him, placing a hand on your waist as you put your weight on your left foot.

"it's time for you to pay up, that's what's up."

dazai pouted, retracting. "can't that wait another day?"

"when? you always tell me that." you rolled your pretty orbs at the bandage wasting device.

"when somebody finally agrees to commit double suicide with me!" gleefully, the 22 year old replied.

you chuckled.

"didn't somebody already agree to commit it already with you?" you clenched your fist, shooting him a sad gaze partnered with a sad smile. this made dazai wonder, why? why the sudden sadness?

you know you're going to regret what you'll be saying next but wouldn't it be better to let it all out now?

after all, bottling up your feelings won't do you any good. it will only just constrain you and that isn't comfortable.

nevertheless, he concealed his confusion perfectly. "really? do tell me who, please!"

"me."

"huh? (last name) what are you—"

"i already committed a double suicide because loving you without you returning my feelings and you acting all sweet to me and being oblivious to what i'm feeling towards you is killing me." you chuckled, pitying yourself.

ah, how pathetic of me.

"isn't this the perfect double suicide one could ask for?"

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i've been meaning to finish this and now i did !!! finally.....
yes i hope yall enjoyed this ^3^ ily ily ily