I am Unkind, Especially to Myself

I wish to be (Me)

I long for connection

with myself, with others

the ones I hold dear and un-dear.

I seek to understand

why do I drink when it makes me sick

why did my father drink till he was?

I wish to be loved

why do I ignore those who make the effort

Why did my mother ignore me?

I wish to be free

Why does it always come to this?

I come close to finishing the story

But before I follow through,

I must give thanks where it is due.

My dearest beloved brother, I love you.