It was as though a speeding train had come crushing into my heart, leaving a deep hole in my yearning spirit. A hole only he could fill, but how could I expect that of him when he doesn't even know what caused it.
I swallowed my dry spit, and tried desperately not to look remotely like the pathetic woman I felt like.
It was the same everyday; myself and I, against my emotions and my heart. It was exhausting. There were time when I felt like giving in, after all I am human. But I'm still here, fighting this neverending war. Of course I knew it was a matter of time before it all came crushing down, I knew that there was going to be a day where I couldn't hold it in any longer, the cracks were starting to show. And I had finaly decided that this is it, this summer I'm going to end this on a high note.
Its now or never, I told myself as I took the slow calculated steps towards him. As I drew near and nearer, my heart felt like the wings of bird, flapping in the air, trying to do what it was intended to do, fly. But the closer I got, the harder it seemed.
I clenched my fingers into a fist, and took a deep breath. Calculating my every move and every word, I stopped right beside him. He swayed his body slightly, and looked down at me. His eye brows drew together, obviously in curiousity of why I was here.
My whole being screamed no, and as I began to obey, his eyes met mine and in that moment I knew this is something I have to do. Or else I will go insane.
YOU ARE READING
jayden.
Romanceakward conversations under the blankets. fighting over socks. making stupid plans. living the dreams. getting drunk on wine and realising that there is nothing nice about sexting. the story of jayden and ellie, and how they (almost) made it.
