Survival

Now

Life before everything happened seemed like a dream I once had. Now I'm living in a nightmare. The unimaginable happened. Lives were taken, war happened and families were torn apart. My family was one of them. I probably won't tell you what happened but what your thinking is probably not as horrible as it seems.

Now dreams don't exist only nightmares. Love isn't real only hatred. There is only enemies not friends. The only way to live is to survive. People die as hero's or cowards. I am the only one on earth right now. The world wasn't overrun by aliens but by hatred.

The human population was dying and earth was dying with it. How did the world come to this you might ask. I would give you an answer but I don't have one. Honestly I ask myself that question everyday. life is unbearable for me.

However, I don't want to commit suicide. I want find out why I'm alive and why everyone isn't. Trust me I will find out one way or another. The silence was unbearable.

There was no more people or animals. Not being able to hear children laughing, birds chirping, and hearing someone tell you the love you is punishment.

The pain is unimaginable in my day to day life. I walked into a house searching the bare walls. On one wall  pictures of a once happy family were shown. I felt tears swell into my eyes. I let them fall and slid down the wall.

I had a fiancé and was planning to have children and a family of my own. I tried to remember the love of my life. All I seemed to remember was his unforgettable electric blue eyes. It's funny how people complain about stupid things when other people have way worse problems. Kids only cared about being popular or keeping up with the latest fashion. Other people worried about having enough money to provide for their families and being able to let their children go to school.

Food wasn't scarce being the only human alive had some perks. I wonder what happened to this once happy family.

Then again what ever happened to my family. I know for sure that there  dead. Everyone is. I will never know how or why.

Rhey could have been shot or killed by animals. All I know is their dead like everyone else.

I took comfort knowing they weren't in this cruel world. I walked out of the house since it was still light. I started walking down a road leading into the rest of the unknown world I have yet to discover. I wonder if I am not alone.

I was pregnant when everything happened. I was also getting married. Imagine my surprise when instead of my dad telling me it was time to walk down the aisle to run away as we heard gunshots. Well the past is the past and the future is about survival. That's what they say now.

Your probably wondering why I am alone when I was supposed to have a child. It was a miscarriage. The word still brought back an ache of emptiness. I wasn't able to deliver the baby as healthy person. My body lacked nutritional vitamins and minerals. I also didn't have the right tools to deliver.

Food wasn't as easy as it is know to find as it was back then.

Like I said the past is the past. I got over it about three mouths later. And by getting over it I mean coming out of my room the next two weeks after being forced. I got over it by screaming and crying until I couldn't.

It was only two weeks because then I lost my voice. I was in a group of survivors when it happened. All they did to comfort me was by saying that it was okay. I actually believed them.

At first I did not because I believed them. But because I had to if I wanted to survive. Then I started ignoring what they said.

What happened to the group you might be wondering. I also ask myself that question everyday. All I know is that they kicked me out after a certain incident. I won't tell you why. You'll find out sooner or later.