The Outgoing

I get upset when I'm around people for too long because being socially active drains me. It makes me feel like I have to do something when deep down I really don't. Why go to the bathroom where I know people will be there, and I have to go really bad. I rather just go up seven floors where I know no-one will be there. Being home feels so good because I know I can just enjoy myself without any distractions. I can read, play video games, do homework, or even write this story, I know that home is where I feel the most complete and nobody can take that away from me. Now that you understand the life I chose you will soon see how I love it.

How could you understand the feelings of someone whose all alone? I've always been alone, my whole life. The only thing I ever had were my thoughts. With that I can be anything I want and it feels like i'm infinite. That was always the main goal to be honest.....just feel like nobody can stop me even though it was a positive action. I love my life, but I hate it simultaneously because I always stick out especially when i'm trying to be unnoticed, which is always. "Your voice is so soft, speak up, and why are you so quiet?" Are the phrases I always here from people whom I really don't care about. You never satisfy family because they are the outgoing ones and you are just a lonely introvert whose sitting here typing some weird shit. I'll soon be proud of it though, hopefully when I made it. The whole point of this was to understand.....hopefully you can.