Jay Rock my life as it is.

Part 1

                                                          I remember bringing the kids home

   I'm looking out the window watching my two kids, and the love of my life Jammal Bradford playing in the back yard with there puppy,I got it for the kids when they came to live with me. Things are smooth now,but just  two years ago when my friend Kim drove up to South Carolina with me, to help me bring the kids home to Savannah Georgia, things weren't as they are now.  See they had just lost there mom in a car accident, thank God they weren't hurt only some cuts and bruises.

The kids stayed with there grandmother until I could arrange to get them full-time.The first time they saw Kim they hated her,I guess they thought she was my girl and a replacement for there mother Brie,at the time they didn't know I was involved with a man. Jammal knew about the kids,but I hid him from them, I always went to his place,Mike and Reginald would take the kids for a weekend or Kim would do it.

See I've hidden my sexuality from my children and family,that's why I moved to Savannah to be me,which it took me a year to do that,I found myself still hiding who I am from myself in another state. That's how I meet Kim in a club,to cover up who I was we dated for awhile,oh that's how I meet Mike and Reginald too through Kim,they were a gay couple and they were happy. I wanted what they had to be free to love who I wanted.

I didn't know at that time through Mike and Reginald I'd meet the love of my life. But anyway after I came out to Mike and Reginald they didn't seem surprised at what I told them,in fact they knew.I told them that I didn't want to hurt Kim.

Mike told me trust him I'm not, Kim already knew about me,what I didn't know is that Kim likes to sleep with gay men to see if she can turn them. After that things with us were cool, anyway when Mike and Reginald introduced me to Jammal I knew I was going to be with him the moment we met.

But,I'll go back to when I first brought the kids home, we got to my place and Brie told Kim she can leave now. Kim told her they can be friends and do things together,Brie told her she already had a mother and she'll never replace her and she hates Kim.

Brie ran to her room,Kim said she'll just leave and just call her later,she said bye to Jason and he just looked at her, Kim hugged me and left.

Jason told me if that's true what Brie said he wants to go back to live with his granny,I told him Kim and I are just friends,a man and a woman can be friends and nothing else.He just looked at me and went upstairs. If there acting like this towards Kim,they will hate Jammal and finding out I'm gay especially Jason, boys don't take kindly to finding out there father is gay.

I went to Brie's room to talk to her,she let me in and I explained to her that Kim and I are just friends nothing more,she said so Kim's not going to try and replace her mother,I told her no one can replace her mother. Brie asked me do I have a girl friend and does she know about Kim and our friendship. I told her I don't have a girl-friend not the way she thinks just Kim as a good friend. Brie told me if I'm lying to her she'll run away,I told her I'm not lying which I wasn't because I had a man but I couldn't tell her that.

Brie said fine than she's the lady of the house as of now,I said yes baby she hugged me and finished unpacking. I asked her are we good now she said yes,and she'll talk to Jason boys are so immature. I left the room and said to myself I didn't lie to my baby girl, she asked me did I have a girl-friend.And I told her the truth,I might have left out I have a man.

Later I took the kids out to dinner, and after dinner we went to kids world and played games,most Saturday nights I'm with Jammal or hanging out with Mike and Reginald. After I put the kids to bed I already planned to go to Jammal's house for a quick piece of dick, I didn't always take dick but Jammal got what he wanted from me after months of me doing him,and I'll admit I like it both ways.

I watched the kids playing a game and my phone rang,Brie looked at me as I answered the phone, its Jammal he asked me hows it going, Kim told him about Brie.I told him after I assured her we weren't dating she's fine,he said good. And am I still coming over later,I told him yes the kids are eleven I'm sure they'll be okay for a little while I need him.

Brie started walking towards me I told Jammal Brie's coming,she walked up to me and asked am I talking to a woman.I told her no its my friend Jammal he knows they came to live with me today, and he was just asking how things are going.

Brie just looked at me,I told her to say hello to him she didn't waste anytime taking the phone,she talked to Jammal for a few minutes and said okay, and gave me back the phone and went back and played her game.

I asked Jammal what did he say to her,he said he just asked her is she glad to be with me,and maybe one day they could meet,that's when she said okay and gave me back the phone.I told him when they do meet him we have to be careful how we act around them,Jammal said don't worry he won't kiss me or rub my dick or ass in front of the children. I told him he can do that when I see him later,I told him I better get off the phone. He said okay and he'll be waiting for me later I hung up. I'm going to have to live two lives for awhile,I just hope Jammal will hold out until I can tell the kids about my sexuality. And later him.

After we finished playing the games we went home,and watched a movie,and after it went off the kids went to bed. I waited an hour before I left,and than I went over Jammal's place and we had sex, he told me maybe I should just tell the kids about him. I told him its too soon losing there mom and than me telling them about him,and I need to tell them about my sexuality first. He said okay and he'll standby me,I kissed him and said thanks,now lets get in round two.

But before we could get started my phone rang,I looked at the caller I.d its my home phone number.I answered it and its Brie she asked me where am I,I told her I went for a drink with my friend,she asked me what friend,I told her Jammal,the one she talked to earlier.

She asked me when am I coming home she doesn't like me gone,I said soon go back to sleep,she said she can't and the house is dark and scary come home now.I told her okay,she asked to talk with Jammal,I guess to see if I were really with him. I gave him the phone and he talked with her,he said okay he'd like that and gave me back the phone.

 I told her daddy is just hanging out with a friend,but I'm on my way home,she said she won't be able to go back to sleep until she knows I'm home.Again I told her I'm on my way and hung up.

I asked Jammal what did she say to him,he said she wants him to come over tomorrow,it looks like he's going to meet the kids sooner than I thought. I told him that might work if Brie sees that I'm just hanging with him,there's no woman in my life,he said he's with Brie there better not be.

He told me it only takes me twenty minutes to get home from his place, fuck him before I leave,I did and got my nut and had to get home.

When I got there all the lights were on in the house,and Ms Brie is waiting for me on the couch,she hugged me and said now she can go back to sleep. I took her to her room and put her to bed,she hugged me again,but this time I think she was smelling me to smell women's perfume,I told her good night and I went and turned off all the lights and went to bed,this is going to be something else.

And tomorrow my baby's meet my man,even if they don't know he's my man kids pick up on things fast.I just hope not to fast so I can explain to them about my sexuality,I texted Jammal and said all is good hear,he didn't respond back after that good dick I gave him he's probable asleep.I got some sleep too tomorrows another day.