I Love You To The Moon And Back (One Shot)

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN THIS SONG, TAYLOR SWIFT DOES. I DO NOT OWN THE BOYS EITHER

I remember your bare feet down the hallway I remember your little laugh

I remember the sound of your little feet running in the hall, every time we played hide and seek. You will laugh and giggle every time I got you and attacked you with tickle, and the way you said “Stop the tickle monster, daddy” never failed to make me smile at your cuteness. Every time your Uncle Harry made an awful joke, you were the only one who laughed.

Race cars on the kitchen floor Plastic dinosaurs, I love you to the moon and back

I remember, you never put back your toys in the box after playing it, it made me yell at you, I hated to yell at you, but you needed to learn and start acting like a big girl and be more responsible. I hated every time you asked me to buy you some race cars, I always tell you to buy dolls or barbies. I remember when I tried to buy a doll-playing-set to you, but it ended up under your bed, because you hated that thing so much. I remember, you spent your time playing with your dog and your plastic dinosaurs. You weren’t like the other girls in your Ballet Class who came with their mom, because you always came with either me or your uncles. I remember those nights when you had nightmare, you will go to my room with your stuff bunny in your hand. I remember your blue eyes looking into mine like we had our own secret club

I remember you dancing before bed time then jumping on me waking me up.

Your blue eyes were just like mine , every time your blue eyes meet mine, it felt like we had a secret club. I remember you always try to practice your Ballet every night but you never do that seriously, so you will end up waking me up and ask me to do the Irish-Jig with you.

I can still feel you hold my hand Little man, from even that moment I knew You fought it hard like an army guy

I can still feel your hand in my hand, I always hold your hand every time we went out, because I didn’t want you to get hurt because of those crazy paparazzi. You never allowed me to called you ‘Daddy’s little girl’ you wanted me to called you ‘Little Man’. I remember your excuses to not come to your ballet lesson, you hated your ballet lesson so much, as much as you hate those girly things. I always think that you need to stop hanging out with your uncles, but what can I do?

I always feel guilty for lettingcancereats your body, but I knew you were good at hiding your own pain with a cheerful smile on your face.

Remember I leaned in and whispered to you Come on baby with me We're gonna fly away from here You were my best four years

Remember the nights when you laid down at your bed when the hope was gone, I leaned down and told you about how much I wish you can stay with me in here, or at least we can fly away together because nothing can tear us apart, even death. I didn’t want you to leave me alone like what your mother did to me. You were my best, and you’ll always be my baby girl.

I remember the drive home when the blind hope Turned to crying and screaming, "Why?"

I remember the very first drive home without you, when the hope was really gone. Everyone was about to cry and scream because they knew, their ‘fave little girl’ was gone. Your uncles were all crying, because they loved you so much.

And it's about to be Halloween You could be anything you wanted if you were still here

I remember your first Halloween, you were dressed as a princess like what I wanted you to be. But you cried for hours because you thought the dress was too girly. You kept telling me to let you dress like what you want. I remember the only dress you’ve ever liked was a black dress with a white bow. You never stop telling me that you wanted to be a witch this year, but I guess you can be a witch this year.... if you were still here.

I remember the last day when I kissed your face I whispered in your ear Come on baby with me We're gonna fly away from here Out of this curtained room in this hospital gray We'll just disappear

I remember the last day, when I knew you’ll go soon. I knew you must go because there was no other choice. I remember, I kissed your face and leaned then whispered in your ear. We can fly away from this curtained room, and leave this hospital because I knew how much you hated hospital. We can just disappear and leave this white room.

What if I'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you?

What if I kept the hand me downs you won't grow into?

And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through?

What if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?

If I’m standing in your closet, and trying to talk to you, will you answer me? I knew how much you loved your closet, it was your secret place, you'll hide there if you made a mistake. What if I really thought a miracle would see us? Because I knew, miracle was the only thing that can makes your pain gone. Or can the miracle give me one moment to stay with you?

I remember your bare feet down the hallway

I love you to the moon and back.